When's My Turn ?

I couldn't handle this. I had to get out of there before I fucking hit her. I ran to my closet, leaving my front door wide open.
I could hear her walk inside but I decided to ignore it. I was heaving, shaking and just furious. I packed my clothes, a toothbrush, a charger for my phone and my car keys.

I ran out of the door before she could stop me and sat in the car.

I made sure to lock the doors so she couldn't open it. I stared at the door for a few seconds and then drove away from my safe haven. 

I didnt know where I was going, just drove around the city until my phone rang. I was scared my mom had somehow managed to get my number but it was just Luca.

I didnt know whether to answer or not, but pressed on accept call anyways.

"Hey sweetie, I was wondering if you'd like to come to my place for movie nights" he said playfully and waited for my reply.

"What's your address?" I said coldly, trying to control my shaking voice.

"Is everything okay Emmet?" he said seriously and continued

"Do you want me to pick you up?" he waited for a reply and I just couldn't get my thoughts straight.

"Your address?" I repeated, ignoring his question. After he replied I hung up and put his address on Waze, an hour drive.

I was scared I wouldn't make it, but decided to try anyways, just becuase I needed someone to hold me. the drive was hard, every 20 minutes I had to stop on the side of the road to stop crying, and relax.

I couldnt believe she found me, the woman I loved the most in this world, the one who kicked me out when I was 14, for trying to fucking eat.

An hour and 15 minutes later I arrived to a fucking mansion. Of course, why am I surprised. The gate opened up after I clicked the little button and I drove to the front door.

as I got out of the car I could see Luca standing outside, waiting for me. The minute I saw him I ran to hug him. I just needed to feel his warmth. He held me tightly, and when he felt I was better he lead me inside. 

The house was beautiful no doubt, with huge windows and wide space. He lead me up the stairs to what seemed like his bedroom. He sat me on the bed and walked to a door inside his room, which I figured was the bathroom.

After 15 minutes he walked out , took my hand and lead me back inside the bathroom. He drew me a bath. I could see the bath bombs sizziling in the water, making it a pretty shade of purple. He stripped my clothes and helped me sit down on the bath.
He didnt join me but sat on the floor next to me, and held my hand. It was quiet and I could feel the stress leave my body.

Once I was done he took a huge towel and made sure to dry every part of my body before giving me his shirt and a pair of underwear to sleep in. he helped me put the clothes on and lead me to the bed.

He tightened the blanket around my body, kissed my head and left the room. At that moment I realized how lucky I was to have him in my life. My eyes closed on its own and I drifted away.

The sun shone brightly in the room, and I had to cover my eyes. I looked around and saw myself in an unfamiliar room. Yesterdays event came rushing in. My mother.

I couldnt believe it, I was 31 years old but still she affected me like this. I was disappointed in myself. I was stronger than this. I had to confront her. but just the thought made me nauseous.

'Maybe tomorrow' I mumbled and closed my eyes again. 

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