heartbroken: a compilation

Trying

with deep regrets

of losing you

and wanting to try

with every fiber of my body

I tried to love you enough

that both our broken pieces 

would fit,

and I tried to make it known

but I was wrong,

to assume

that I would be enough

to hold you together

when I can't even hold myself

I tried to get help,

but now that you are gone,

I will try to writhe until

death takes its hold

and drags me into the deep hell

of existence

but anything

that devil has planned

for me

with be nothing,

compared to your absence

the hole inside me

that you were more then enough,

that you weren't abusive like the others,

that you were good.

That I could have had something 

deep and real,

and I still lost

hell

has nothing

on you

leaving me

broken

on that hill

I should have jumped

in the car ride

I should have

opened the door

but I couldn't

when you were so close

I hoped you'd change your mind

that you would stand by my side

and see that me changing 

was for the better

that together we could fight

the demons,

and find happiness

but all that trying

all that loving

still ended me

in deeper layers of 

fire

and hell

has nothing compared

to you breaking my heart