Maze Runner story- Beware your fears (Newt × Reader)

*time skip*

Y/N P.O.V

A few weeks have passed and I was assigned to the track-hoes after they let me out of the pit. This is good, because now I can spend the whole day with Newt.  We talk about all kinds of things. We often gossip about the misfortunes of the others or make fun of Minho and Gally. It's nice to see that Newt and I are getting closer and closer and I get to know him more. I love to see him laugh and- god his cute smile makes my heart beat bloody fast. I guess I've been catching feelings since I met him but now I'm sure that they are real... Meanwhile I even get along with the other boys, although some still can't stand me. Nevertheless I am a Glader now, because my name stands on the wall, right next to Newt's and I try to adapt as best as I can.
Tired I walk with a spade in my hand to the beds that have to be dug up today. The dew, which covers the meadow like a blanket, soaks the fabric of my shoes but I don't mind because my friends Zart and Kyle already greet me. They also work in the garden and I get along well with them. "Hey shanks, what's up?" I ask with a smile and start working while the others spread out next to me and do their assigned tasks. "We have to finish the beds and tomorrow the new greenie will arrive with the seeds for the next month. So we have a lot to do." says Zart as he pulls some old roots out of the ground. Kyle snorts scornfully and I look at the boy with the curly, dark brown hair and tanned skin. "Every greenie means another mouth to feed. How long are we supposed to wait here until we get out?" Kyle hisses and stabs his shovel into the ground powerfully. I sigh and remain silent, because I cannot comprehend how hard it must be for all Glader to be locked up in this shucking prison for three years. To my relief I feel the pleasant tingling in my stomach after a few minutes, which always reminds me that Newt is nearby. With my eyes I scan my surroundings and not ten meters away from me he stands and talks to Chuck. He stands with his back to me and points towards the Homestead. I hope that he will come to the garden soon, because I hate Kyle's tense mood, which apparently has also transferred to Zart. As if the second-in-command had heard my request, he turns and limps over to us. Grinning, I walk up to him and hug him. "Morning Newtie." I mumble into his shoulder and I feel his warm breath on my neck. I hear somebody sighing. "The last time you two saw each other was last night. Every morning you pretend to see each other for the first time in years." says Zart amused. I break away from my best friend and look at the keeper of the track-hoes with a warning glare. He knows how much Newt means to me and that I have more than just friendly feelings for the Brit. As the others found out, we both have the same accent and Minho often makes fun of us because of that, but I love this similarity. Newt pulls me a little closer to him and bows his head a little bit. "I have something to tell you. We'll meet at our place during the lunch break." he whispers into my ear and I nod. Then we separate and I go and continue working. But this time we don't talk and I have the feeling that Newt is more tense than usual...
Time passes unbearably slowly until we finally take a break. My forehead is sweating and I brush my hair out of my face. "Are you coming Y/N? We're going to the kitchen." Kyle asks and I shake my head. "No thanks, I'm not hungry. Go on, I'll stay here." I reply and he goes to Frypan together with Zart and the other boys. I quickly make my way to the lake that Newt and I love, following the narrow path. When I arrive at the small clearing, I see him. Emidiatly I stand still as if my body is frozen. Did he really...? No way!...

It can't be true...
There's a little blanket on the grass and light blue flowers blooming everywhere. There stands a small basket on the blanket and two plates. I try not to step on one of the beautiful flowers and walk a few meters further. The tingling in my stomach gets stronger and I turn around. There he stands. The blond boy with whom I have had a special connection since my arrival and who is now coming towards me. Newt stops frighteningly close in front of me and I look into his eyes for a short moment before I look somewhere else. My heart beats so fast that I'm afraid he might hear it. "N-Newt...did you do all that?" I ask uncertainly and look to the side. My cheeks feel warm and I'm sure I look like a bloody tomato. "Yes...do you like it?" he asks nervously. I nod and he pulls me by the hand to the blanket. Together we sit down and I can't help but stare at Newt all the time. "Okay, so you're probably wondering why I asked you to come here." he starts hesitantly and takes some sandwiches out of the basket. "Yeah...kind of. I mean, this is wonderful, but I never expected this." I admit with a shy smile.
The sun's rays fall directly on his perfect face and his frizzy hair, which shines golden. His brown eyes look like amber and he seems quite nervous. After a moment I force myself to look somewhere else and stop staring at him. "I wanted you to come here so I could tell you something important." he continues, and a weird feeling comes over me. What could be so important that he has to meet me so far from the other Gladers? I look at him insecurely and raise one eyebrow. "O-okay...well, what's wrong?" I ask and nervously let my knuckles crack. Newt comes a bit closer to me and runs his hand through his hair. "I-I don't really know how to start..." he says quietly and I put my right hand on his arm. "Hey, just tell me. You know you can talk to me about anything." I calm him down, even though I'm at my wits' end. My heart is beating like crazy, my stomach is tingling every time I am near him and I dream about him almost every night. What could go wrong when I'm alone with him? Newt takes a deep breath once and then looks me in the eyes. "IreallylikeyouandIwanttobemorethanafriendtoyou." he mumbles and turns red. Confused, I laugh and shake my head. "What? Please say it again. Only this time slower." I ask him and he sighs. "I really like you Y/N. And..I- I don't just want to be your best friend. You make me feel so special every day and without you I'd probably not be alive anymore. Since you came out of this bloody box I feel accepted for who I really am and I can't tell you how much I love you." he confesses and my jaw drops. Blushing I just realize that he told me he loves me. "W-wow I don't know what to say. You really feel that way?" I ask carefully. He nods and avoids my gaze. A smile appears on my face and I embrace him without hesitation. "You bloody shank! Why didn't you tell me sooner?" I ask him and press my nose against the bend of his neck. I can feel his warm, firm arms around me. "I love you too."

"Really? I always thought that you just thought of me as a friend and-" he starts, but I interrupt him by kissing him. I close my eyes and lean towards him. First he hesitates but then his hands automatically move to my hips and pull me closer to him. My hands slid slightly into his hair as he kisses me deeply, urging me to move my lips against his own in response. I feel the blood flowing in my veins and an unknown warmth envelops me like a light blanket of velvet. Out of nowhere a memory appears in my head: Newt stands in front of me, his hand cups my cheek and he looks at me happier than I've ever seen him. His hair is slightly shorter and lighter in my memory but he looks as handsome as ever.
Then another memory appears: We're in a park, riding bikes hand in hand. He looks in my direction and laughs heartily. The sun is just setting and his hair has a red glow.

The pictures disappear when I open my eyes and I release myself from Newt. He looks at me startled and his mouth is slightly open. "Wow. Y-your eyes...they have changed." he stutters in surprise. "What? What do you mean?" I ask insecurely and rub my eyes briefly. "No... now it's gone. I swear your eyes just had a different colour. They were blue like the sea for a moment and had gold flecks. That was bloody amazing." he whispers and it seems as if he can't really believe what just happened. I look at him in astonishment and shake my head. "I'm sure you probably just imagined it. That's..." I start and Newt finishes my sentence. "...impossible? Just as impossible as it is to hurt a person by screaming incredibly high?" he asks and raises an eyebrow. "I don't know what's wrong with me either. Somehow I'm different - apart from being the only bloody girl." I say quietly and look at Newt helplessly. "There's nothing wrong with being different, and there's nothing wrong with you. I love you for who you are. You're the best thing that ever happened to me, and I'll protect you forever." he promises me and looks at me with the same loving look I saw in my memories. Then he takes me in his arms and I lean my head against his chest. "You and me forever?" I ask quietly. "You and me forever." he answers and chuckles when I grin like an idiot.
The hours go by, and we eat and laugh a lot. I tell him about all my thoughts, memories and dreams. In return he tells about his suicide attempt and his nightmares. I promise him that he can always tell me everything and I will always stand by him. We talk until it gets dark and the stars appear in the sky. At some point we lie down on the blanket and I place my head on his shoulder. Newt puts his arm around me and gives me a kiss on the head. "Good night Love."