A Random Lockdown Diary

EXERCISE

I did some exercise again today.  It hurt after, but it was the good kind of hurt.  The accomplished-something hurt.

HOMEWORK

Then I did homework.  I filled out two pages of questions, took a quiz over it, then finished a book and wrote a five-page summary.  When I went to send the paper to my professor, he said some nice stuff to me about my work in class.  That felt really good and I'm grateful for his kind words!

SHOW

I started watching this show called Derry Girls last night, so I watched some more today.  It's so funny, but it's so inappropriate at times LOL.

CALORIES

I wanted to glow up a bit during the lockdown, so I had decided to start limiting my calories.  I'm underweight, but I wanted to lose a pound or two for whatever reason.  Well, I realize now that that was absolutely stupid and I should not be doing that to my body (besides, I'm too hungry to be that strict LOL.)  It's okay to eat healthier, but gee whiz, I should not want to lose weight.  I've had this sort of thing happen on and off, and I know it's not good for my mental health, so maybe I should talk to people about these things more often so I don't make such unhealthy decisions.

SPA

I had a little spa time instead to cope with the feelings.  I don't understand why I care so much about my appearance.  Part of me wants to say it's because I feel like people won't accept me because of my looks and style (something I dealt with in elementary and middle school a lot,) but I also feel like I'm just narcissistic and it bothers me.  I don't want to be like this.

ATTENTION

BF and I haven't messaged much today, and we haven't videocalled at all.  He's busy today, but I still want attention from him.  I feel so horrible about it though.

SORRY

I'm so sorry I keep complaining about myself and my problems today.  It feels really egotistical.  If you're reading this, please tell me something you admire about yourself!

YOU

How was your day so far today?