The Closer I Get To You [ON-GOING]

Pagkatapos ng gabing iyon ay tumawag agad ako kay Gelay. I almost told her what happened. Kinilig ang gaga. Kahit na sinabi kong magaspang ang ugali kung minsan.
I never thought we could talk like that. Kahit man hindi yun ganun ka deep talks at least nag talk and that's what matter.

Kinaumagahan niyan nag usap kami ni Lana at Gelay about sa nangyari. They told me to be cautious sa nararamdaman ko. Nalungkot ako nang kunti lalo't maalalang may girlfriend na pala si Brendt. I almost forgot about that one. Pero crush lang naman eh. Di naman siguro lalalim yun.

Pero ang isa ko pang problem ay si Xeb. He should know about this. Okay nang malaman niya mismo sakin kesa sa iba pa niya malaman. But what makes it hard for me to do it is the thought that he might get distant from me and known each other as an acquaintance. That would be a huge dearth for me. But I know it will unfair for him.
Andito yung takot na lumayo siya sakin o takot na masasaktan ko na naman siya.

" Ang OA mo Daine! Crush mo lang naman yung isa. Di mo naman mahal diba?"

Napapikit ako sa sinabi ni Gelay referring to Brendt. Because she didn't get my point.

" Even a simple crush or whatever you call it, still masasaktan nun si Xeb! He's really trying his best to win me. 2 years na niyang ginagawa to."

I blurted in so much uneasiness. Ang inaalala ko talaga kasi ay yung nararamdaman ni Xeb. As what I told before,  he deserves more than this. And I'm a sick fool because I cant even pay for it as same he can give and made me feel within this years.

" Sabagay! Tama ka naman ate. Xeb will really get hurt lalo na't mahal ma mahal ka nong isang yun. Pero anong gagawin mo ngayon? Ni hindi ka nga gusto ng gusto mo. And worst diba sabi mo laging magkasama yung si  Handak?"

We decided to go in hospital to visit and to know the condition of Xeb's younger brother Xaidee. Napamahal na ang batang yun sakin. He's still 10 year's old imagine the gap of Xeb to his brother. Xeb is 27 years old already. At kapag pumupunta kami sa mall tatlo napagkakamalang mag anak kami.
Halos tatlong araw na hindi nagpapakita si Xeb sa amin at hidi rinnsoya nag co-communicate sakin tulad ng nakaugakian niya. That's why I'm worried about him.

Pagkarating namin sa hospital ay ang mommy niya ang naabutan namin. Hinanap namin siya pero umalis daw saglit upang kausapin ang doctor ni Xaidee. Xaide is now suffering with a Chronic Kidney Failure kaya napag alaman naming kailangan din palang dalhin sa America para doon nalang gawin ang transplant.

I felt so sad for their family. All this years since I get to know Xeb's family , I never felt like a nobody to them they treat me like a family that's why I want to help them. Naawa di ako kay Xeb, He didn't go to school just to help her mother took care of Xaidee and  responsible of all the needs before they fly to America.

After that night I talk to Dad and mom and of course si ate Maggie if what should we do to help Xeb and his mother about Xaidee's condition.

" We can help them find donors." Mom said.
" I knew someone who can help us to find it. Dont worry." She caress my face. Because I'm too worried about Xaidee because he's like my brother.

" I'll take the responsibility to look for a best doctor that they can have that would be no problem with me. I call them later."  Ate assured me and already typing something on her phone and excuse herself to us to make a call.

" So everything is settled so all I can offer is the transportation for them to ride immediately so they'll arrive there as soon as possible. I'll talk to your grandpa about that. I know he'll going to let us borrow her private plane."