jschlatt imagines

this one feels so short compared to my last one lol. if you have any requests, please let me know!! i have ideas for chapters but if you guys have any requests, i'll definitely write them! also paranoid android is a v good song you should totally listen to it!! <3

   the living room television quietly played an episode of a random show that you weren't paying attention to. you were sat on the couch, staring off into space. today had been rough, to say the least. intrusive thoughts flooded your mind and you had a sinking feeling in your chest that you just couldn't get rid of. you kept quiet about it though, as schlatt was very busy and you didn't want to feel like a burden.

   the evening sun shone through the windows, casting a golden glow on everything in the room. you took in the sight, admiring the beauty in front of you, before you were interrupted by schlatt's footsteps coming up the stairs.

   "do you want to drive around for a bit? today's been kinda hectic and i think it'd be a good way to chill out," he asked as he made his way to the couch and stopped beside it.

   you looked up at him with a slightly fake smile. "sounds good to me." you stood up.

   "you alright? you seem a little upset," schlatt asked as he placed an arm around your waist, bringing you in for a hug.

   "i'm good, just a little tired," you responded, hugging back before walking to the front door to grab a pair of shoes, schlatt following not too far behind.

   schlatt grabbed the keys as the two of you made your way to the car. you got in on the passenger's side while schlatt got in on the driver's and started the car. he looked over at you with a soft smile and placed a hand on yours.

   you smiled back and connected your phone to the car radio, putting on the playlist you always did when you and schlatt would take random drives.

   the two of you spent the next little while having a good time with great music, enjoying each other's peaceful company, but you still couldn't shake the thoughts and the sinking feeling away.

   you zoned out for a moment, trying to figure out what was causing these things to happen to you. you were brought back to reality by schlatt stroking your hand with his thumb. just as you were brought back, "paranoid android" by radiohead began to play.

please could you stop the noise? i'm trying to get some rest.

   you and schlatt quietly sang along, this being one of your personal favorites on the playlist. you were having a good time with schlatt, but you noticed that as the song progressed, the sinking feeling in your chest became stronger and stronger.

when i am king, you will be first against the wall.

   you looked over to the brunette sitting beside of you. the setting evening sun casted a golden light on the side of his face, illuminating the small specks of gold in his eyes and the light red and orange tints in his dark brown hair. he looked over at you with a smile once again, love pouring out from him.

   you squeezed his hand once and sighed in contentment and slight anxiety.

   the rest of the song played out as normal, with the two of you singing along badly. that was, until the last about two minutes began playing.

rain down,
rain down,
come on, rain down,
on me

   as you focused on the song, your chest began to feel tighter and your eyes stung as they filled with tears. you tried to hold them back for the sake of the mood of the drive, but ultimately couldn't.

from a great height,
from a great
height,
height

   tears slipped down your cheeks as you brought your shaky hands up to wipe them away. schlatt was focused on driving currently, so you took the opportunity to try to clean up a bit.

   you let out barely audible cries and sniffles, trying your best not to alert schlatt. the music was pretty loud, so you figured you were pretty much safe.

   you wiped your eyes with the sleeve of your sweater, looking out the window in the process. you noticed that the music had gotten quieter, so you focused on not being too obvious with your sniffles.

   "are you crying?" you heard schlatt ask. you didn't look over to him and kept your eyeline on the passing trees.

   "no," you weakly said, trying your best to conceal the sadness in your voice.

   "y/n, come on. i know you better than that," schlatt responded as he placed a hand on your thigh. "what's wrong?"

   at this point, you knew you had lost. you looked over at schlatt and were met with a concerned brunette who looked away from you every so often to keep his eyes on the road. his expression softened when he saw the tears glistening on your cheeks.

   "today's just been rough," you said, not wanting to really go into detail to save yourself and schlatt from extreme tears.

   "what's made it rough, hon?" he asked, rubbing his thumb on your leg.

   "my mind's just been a mess of bad thoughts and anxiety and it just confuses me a lot because i haven't been feeling bad lately and-" you cut yourself off to let out a quiet, small sob.

   "oh y/n," schlatt concernedly said as he pulled into the closest entrance and parked in a random spot before turning off the car. "if you felt like that, why didn't you come tell me? i would have dropped everything to help you, hon," he asked as he turned over to face you.

   "i didn't want to interrupt you or be a burden," you replied, looking away from him as more tears fell and a broken, quiet sob cracked at your lungs. schlatt's heart broke at your words.

   "look at me, y/n," he softly ordered. you followed and wiped your eyes, focusing on the little different-colored flecks in his. "you are and never will be a burden in any way, shape, or form to me. i'd give up meeting james charles to stay home with you when you're having a bad day for god's sake!" he said with a slight chuckle, making you giggle a bit.

   "there's that smile i love," he cheekily grinned, you doing the same.

   "i love you, j," you spoke as love swirled in the air between the two of you, your tears already drying up.

   "i love you too, y/n," schlatt replied with a loving smile before leaning over to kiss you softly. "how about we get food from a drive-thru, go home, and have a nice night in watching scott the woz videos?" he happily asked.

   "that sounds like a fantastic night to me," you smiled as schlatt pulled out of his parking spot and made his way to your favorite fast food restaurant.

   the two of you stayed silent for a bit, focusing on the quiet music playing.

   "hey y/n?" schlatt broke the silence.

    "yeah?"

   "i want you to know that you are the exact opposite of a burden."

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