I Don't Hate You But I Don't Like You.

Your POV

It's next day. Ajiah is actually feeling better. She didn't throw up. I askes her to stay here and rest but she wanted to come with me. We went to the Warner Bros studio, and there we were guided to the actual set. People here are super sweet.

I got my own green room. I changed into my outfit and did my owm hair and makeup. I don't people shoved against my face while applying kilos and kilos of makeup!

Ajiah was sitting on the sofa like a melting ice cude looking at the TV in room which was showing what's going on on the stage.

I was soon being called. I am so nervous this is my first international talk show. I feel like my heart is about to burst out of my rib cage. I walked om the stage as Ellen announced.

I jogged to her all excited and pulled her in a hug. She hugged me back.

"hey, welcome to the show!" She said.

"hi, thank you for inviting me!" I grinned. I turned and shook hands with Harry. I have met him twice and this is the third time. We finally took our seats.

"how are you doing YN?" Ellen asked.

"I am doing great! How are you doing?" I said nervously rubbing my hands together.

"Me too!" she smiled. "so first of all. Your new single weirdo is out now. What it is about?"

I don't know how to say this without being embarrassed. "it's- it's about me being ditched on my first ever date!" I felt my cheeks heating up in embarrassment. The audience awed in pitty.

"what? Why?" I heard Harry snickering next to me.

"Cuz he thought I- I escaped from a mental hospital and said I am weirdo!" I perssed my lips. "he literally said I amvsuch a weirdo." I said trying to joke it out. I looked down fiddling with my fingers. "and then he said he's not into girls and he wouldn't date me if I were a boy!"

I still can't get that out of my mind. This asshole came out to me plus insulted me after we mutually agreed to go on a DATE. He literally ruined my first date experience. WHY WOULD HE AGREE TO GO ON A DATE WITH ME IF HE KNEW HE IS GAY! LIKE SERIOUSLY? WHY? He straight up said he's gay and a month later I found out he's dating a GIRL from my Economics class.

"aww that's so sad!" Ellen cooed but laughed. I laughed as well, I am over it out. He was just a high school crush and nothing else.

"yeah it was. I cried for a month over it!" I nodded as I joked. I did cried but just for a night. "I am over it now!" I waved my hand as if nothing happened.

"that was your first date?" Ellen enquired.

"yeah!" I agreed.

"so are you dating anyone now?" she asked.

"no I am not!" I said touching my ears as to say I don't want to experience that again. Everyone laughed.

"I am curious to know. Why did he called you a weirdo?" Harry asked turning to me. I face palmed myself.. How do I explain it to this guy that I am completely opposite in front of people I hardly when I'm off camera ans that asshole of a guy didn't get it!

"I- I was nervous! And I say shit when- when I am nervous" I stuttered.

"why?"

"what 'why'? Weren't you nervous on your first date?" I asked him.

"I was!" he admitted.

"you don't seem to like guys after I guess cuz-" a short video of me teasing Ajiah by saying shtuff about Harry played. I just want to curl up in a ball and die! "-yeah. You clearly don't like someone here!" Ellem teased me.