I Don't Hate You But I Don't Like You.

Your POV

It's three days after the premiere. I couldn't contact Harry properly because he's in completly different part of the world right now and I am back home in London. I ended up signing off the contract with my management company, Mr. CEO won't understand anything and he wanted what he wanted. Also I ended up paying heafty amount to compensate with their loss. Was it an impulsive decision? Maybe.. I got some time to think about it. I don't think I would regret it. I didn't wanted to work with people who were trying control what I do, anyway.

Harry haven't replied to my text yet. It's really late where he is right now. I texted him again to call me no matter what time at the night it is. There is seriously nothing he could about this. But I just want to talk to him and tell him what happened!

Everyone might be thinking I am overreacting but I have been working with the management from past 5- almost 6 years. I made really good friends with the people I have worked with. Especially Karan, I was literally pain in his ass where ever we went for events. He's like an elder brother to me. I won't be able to work with him now, he is the one who helped me write the lyrics to my song. I really enjoyed working with Sarah too.

It's 2 pm in the afternoon right now, I received a call from Harry. Finally! I immediately answered it.

"hello?" I spoke, I could here the loud music background.

"hey, love!" he said. He sounded a little weird.

"Harry are you drunk?" I am pretty sure he's attending a party and is now drunk. "Harry!"

"yes! Yes I am listening. I am so sorry. Mitch dragged me to the party with him." he slurred.

"it's fine!" I said. "when you're coming back?"

"Don't you know?" he asked.

"I don't know that's why I am asking. Have we talked in weeks that I would when you're coming back?" I am getting a little frustrated.

I heard him sigh, "woah calm down, I am coming back to London in 4 days."

"ohk, can you call me when you're sober? I really want to talk to you!"

"you can talk to me right now."

"no, I don't want to talk right now. Just call me or text me when you're hangover is gone!" I tried to sound calm as possible.

"ohk, I'll call you tomorrow." he said.

"yeah." I sighed, "please be careful!"

"I will! Bye."

"bye!" I hung up and fell back on my bed. I have no work now, other than making YouTube videos. I literally lost my job, I was ment to be performing at for charity concert today in India but it all got cancelled. I also had another audition but it also got cancelled. Was it a wrong decision? But that guy was to ruin all my relationships! I was seriously being forced to "Date" Tom because of the rumours. Because that was gonna benefit their company. I don't want my friendship with Tom to be ruined. Also I don't want to hurt Harry.

Clearly my relationships with people close to me matters alot even if I have to be jobless, let it be romantic or platonic. I am basically jobless now. I have no work to do. YouTube doesn't pay enough. I need to figure out what I'm gonna do now. For now, I shot a quick cover of my favourite and uploaded that on YouTube. I am not at a state to shoot an entire video, and edit it for hours.

I decided to just sleep over my problems until I was woken by Ajiah's call. She said she was coming over with food and Nymeria in 15 minutes. I fixed my appearance by that time, not that she would mind. She have seen worse. It's that I look filthy cuz I have been crying the entire day. I just want someone to hug me!

I walked out to give Rogers his food when I heard the front door opening. It's Ajiah. We have keys to each others places. Nymeria came hopping to me wagging her tail. I gave her a kiss on her head she licked my face in return. I patted her head before standing up.

"how are doing now?" Ajiah asked as she hugged me.

"I don't know!" I hugged her back.

....

3 day's passed by. Ajiah was staying with me at my place. I felt nothing but awful. I had nothing to do. I had no one to talk to except Ajiah but she would go to work in the day and I didn't felt like disturbing her after a tiring day at office. Harry was busy as he said. Talking him felt like therapy sessions but he's... Busy, he says. I am taking Nymeria our on walks which is helping me get out of my bed and house. Karan have been trying his best to find another management company for me- I didn't asked him to do that, he's doing that on his own will. I sat down on the grass whilst Nymeria was passed out next to me after a hardcore playing sesh.

I checked my phone. My instagram. The news was all over the internet and media. I checked my emails, now the management I left is asking me to join back. I don't know what to do so I forwarded it to Karan, maybe he can tell me what to do. I mean I am not gonna start to work with them again, but what if I don't find any other company who's willing to work with me? I am so confused..

I went back home, I so badly want to talk to Harry or at least just hug him. I picked up my phone to text him myself as he haven't texted me yet but I locked my phone and kept it aside thinking he might be busy or sleeping. I didn't wanted to disturb him.