IN TOO DEEP

Song in background--  train wreck by James Arthur

*SAM*

It’s been three days in this hellhole and the days couldn’t get any worse. I just finished peeing in the tiny toilet in my cell and I couldn’t help but feel anger towards Hunter because after all he was the reason I was in here going through all this. I told him to quit but he didn’t and now here I was. I hear footsteps approaching and I shoot up taking a confident stand. The boss comes into view. I keep trying to remember his name but I couldn’t.

He made his way to me an emotionless expression on his face as he drew nearer. “You know I could just kill you right here and now" he said coldly making me shiver lightly  “But I wouldn’t. I would make you suffer because I know that’s the only way I can torture dead shot” he finished now running his hands through my hair.

I really need to get used to Hunter’s street name. I wanted to move away but stopped myself. I didn’t want another painful slap on my jaw, it was still healing. He ran his hand down my swollen face pressing hard on my blue eye causing me to wince as I cursed. He chuckled before turning and walking to the door.

“Next time your precious boyfriend wouldn’t dare make an attempt on my life" he said before exiting and my eyes widened.

So that’s why I’m here? He wanted revenge on Hunter and he was using me to get it. I looked on the floor as my eyes grew wet with tears. He was going to kill me for sure and no one was going to stop him.

*HUNTER*

It’s been three days and I’m still yet to find hazel. I’ve had my men stand guard her house to protect Joe and I gave them stricken orders to kill anyone who posed a threat. I was so going to kill Jefe and I don’t care if I die in the process. Tommy was here at my apartment with me to stop me from running insane. I couldn’t sleep and I haven’t eaten in days but I don’t care. I had no appetite nor did I have any cravings for a shut eye. I felt like I was loosing it literally.

“Dude you have to eat something” Tommy said handing me a box of pizza he ordered.

“I’m not hungry” I replied not looking up at him.

“You cant starve yourself to death" he argued.

“I said I’m not fucking hungry!!!” I yelled back standing up and leaving in the elevator.

Tommy just looks at me with worried eyes but I relaxed against the elevator wall as the door closed.

I got into my bike not caring to put on a helmet because I wasn’t thinking straight in the least. I start my bike and zoom out of the compound going at the fastest speed I could. I managed to make it to the clearing without getting pulled over by the cops or getting in an accident.

I get off walking to the edge of the cliff feeling tears sting my eyes as they formed. I didn’t know how to function without her. I was helpless and crazy without her here to hold me down, to love me. I wanted to feel her skin, to smell her sweet scent to kiss her soft lips and hold her tight to me.

“Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!” I screamed out my lungs letting the tears fall down freely. The last time I had cried like this was when my grandmother passed away.

“Hazel where the fuck are they keeping you?!!!” I screamed again this time falling on my knees feeling so helpless.

She has been gone three days and I cant even get a location. What if they had killed her or even abused her? I felt my insides wrench as I thought of the state she might be in. I never should have dragged her into this. I was fucked up and dangerous to be around but I was just too selfish. I wanted to have her even though I knew the dangers attached. I wanted to hold her close to me even though I knew she could get killed for just walking with me. I never should have loved her so deeply now I’m in too deep and there was no getting out.

I stayed there crying on my knees for what felt like an hour before getting up on my bike and making my way to the nearest bar. I needed to get my mind off it for a bit if not I’ll end up putting a bullet in my head out of guilt and hurt.

*TOMMY*

I hear a loud thud in the living room and I made my way there in fear of one of Jefe’s men breaking in. I pulled out my gun ready to fire when immediately I see Hunter sprawled on the floor. I lowered my weapon placing it back in my back and walking towards him. He looked drunk and he reeked of alcohol.

“Tommy I fucked up man" Hunter said as I squatted beside him. “Its my fault she got kidnapped and I... I cant even fucking do anything about it" he slurred.

My heart ached seeing my best friend in this defeated state. I only saw him like this when his grandmother passed and it wasn’t even this bad.

“That’s okay man. We’ll find her and bring her home. And it’s not your fault" I corrected trying to make him see my point

“It is" he replied trying to sitting up but falling back. I helped him up and he sat up well still swaying a bit. “I love her man. I had to be fucking selfish and love her this much and now Jefe has her. I put her in danger” he replied

I let out an exhausted sigh as I had not slept well in the past three days just like him. I try to pick him up but he wouldn’t budge.

“Come on man. Go to bed and get some sleep" I said trying to help him up but he refused pushing me back making me fall on my butt.

“I’m trying to fucking help you!!!” I yelled at him but he didn’t respond. He just sat there with his hands by his side and his head down.

“I'm sorry okay. I know I’m being a jerk" he apologised and my heart softened “but it hurts so much man" he said clenching his chest through his shirt sobbing “I love her too much and I cant... I cant loose her" he finished.

“I know man. I’m sorry. I promise we’ll find her" I said patting his back as he cried away.

I woke up on the floor beside him. He was still passed out. He needed the sleep the dark circles evident around his eyes and his stomach rising and falling as he breathed.

I stood up making my way to the guest room entering the shower. I quickly showered stepping out and checking my phone. Three missed calls from vai. I sighed. She had been so worried since I told her about Sam going missing. I face time her back and she picked up on the first ring her beautiful face coming into vie making me automatically smile.

“Babe!!! I’ve been trying to reach you!!!” she whined “Any updates? Have you guys seen her?” she asked worried. I could tell she was also getting little sleep from the faint dark circles on her eyes too.

I run my hair through my hair “no not yet babe. I’m sorry. I passed out yesterday” I apologised

“Its fine. I’ll be coming over soon" she said and I nodded my head

“Okay. I’ll be at the club" I replied
“okay bye. See you soon" she said before hanging up.

I wanted to tell her I loved her so bad but I was scared if I tell her she might freak and leave me breaking my heart. I dropped my phone on the nightstand making my way back to the living room. Hunter wasn’t there and so I dashed upstairs to look for him.

“Hunter?” I called out

“I’m in the shower” he replied and I let out a sigh of relief.

I make my way downstairs fixing us both breakfast before settling down on the sofa and turning on the TV. I hear a sound coming from behind me and I turned to see Hunter coming to my direction with his plate in hand.

“Thanks” he said taking a sit beside me and chewing his food.

I nod in response facing the TV.

“I'm sorry for how I’ve been acting lately. Being a jerk to you when you just want me to be okay" he said and I nod in response.

“Its cool. I know I would do the same If i were in your shoes” I replied and he chuckled. It felt like forever since I heard that sounds

“You’d be worse man" he said smiling
I smiled back feeling relieved he is feeling better.

I guess coming out with it helped him a lot. We both sit down enjoying the car race and commenting from time to time.

I check my time and its already past 10am. “I’m heading to the club. I’ll see you there?” I asked and he nodded. We exchanged bro hugs and I patted his back before heading out.