Just Friends
I want your forgiveness
your friendship
I want the old talks
the way you sang to me
you had me
when you had your ringtone on love story
our song
only for me
I miss your smiles
your laugh
I miss the way we were
I don't want you as a boyfriend
I'm in love and broken
and you don't deserve that
but I miss you,
the way you looked at me
for the first times in months went I went away
I miss your voice
your smile now
the way you look at me
and protect me
Years
I got my friendship back
the one I begged for
I missed you
and since you are trying again
I won't lose you
not after so many years
of you sticking by my side
even when I didn't deserve it
Balanced
finally balance
one after another
great work.
persistence.
management.
loyalty
I'm so thankful
to expect so much
to plan
to have a lot going on
and make it
and get even more than expected
Her
I see the way you look at her
I know you love her
you used to look at me like that
I know you care for her
because you used to touch me like that
I see she makes your eyes shine
and your body shake
and your lips tingle
because I used to make you feel like that
and know I wonder
what I did wrong
for my heart to break
each time see your face
Evil Little Angel
when you close your eyes
you are still a baby
young, beautiful
and full of life
you are peaceful like an angel
when you open your eyes
you are wild and fun
a raging storm
but when you hold me
when you touch my hand
when you hug me
or say my name
you are my little sister,
and that fear that has you holding onto me
grips at my core
I will protect you
against the world
and I want to see you succeed
you are everything to me,
holding me together
you are mischievous and trouble
you destroy like a tornado but
you also heal
Guitar
I fell in love
with how your arms curled
perfectly around my waist
I fell in love with your deep blue eyes
how they shield my name
I fell in love with your lips
when the cherry taste first hit
I fell in love with your hands
how strong yet gentle the strokes
but you broke me
you made me evil
and I'm waiting
this is what you get
for getting a different girl
why did you use a 15 year old like me
when you were way past the age of 23
you should've know better
than to toy with my heart
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I wish it had been true
I'm sorry I didn't want to wake up
I'm sorry that it didn't happen
I'm sorry that it did
I wish it didn't feel like this
being in love with two face
it hurts
but baby I'll still always choose you
I just wish it had happened, that you had come before him
Fell
baby,
I fell in love
by the first look
you swung me off my feet
with the first kiss
I gave you all
with my lose of purity
and I lost it all
from the first hit,
the first blood drop
Neglection
you neglect my dreams
you say you wish they cared
but everything is lies
pouring out,
flooding me
you say I'm useless
worthless
horrible
I didn't do anything to you
yet you hate me
one day ill be out of your life
and you'll miss me
but your tears will be pointless
when I'm living my own life
since you are the one who hurt me
everyday, slowly
with your words
Wrong
I'm sorry
I never know what I do wrong
I never know why you are mad
all I know is that you are
your silence is torture
and my heart breaks
but I know its wrong
its better this way,
far away..
Full of guitars
I can't help it
I think about you all the time
it hurts
seeing you make me sick
but I wonder how you are
if you are still with her
if I cross your mind
I know I was your mistake
I wonder if you feel guilt about what you did to me
I wonder..
does it hurt as much as it hurts me
KIK
an innocent number
but you are a user,
a player,
a cheater
you made me lose a friendship
start a fight
and have their stares haunt me
you made me flinch at your name
and fear for my life
a part of me must have wanted the guilt
to make death easier
the pain if I truly fell
he didn't understand I needed to do it on my own
to suffer and it hurt
I guess it worked
all you wanted was sex,
and when I found out you had someone
I wish she had believed me
I wish she had left you
Longing
dear my best friend
I dream of a day you'll love me
where your lips will brush on mine
where you'll gaze softly
and nuzzle up to my skin
I dream, of what your touch would feel like
what it will feel like deep and bare
I dream of finding love
deep in your wake
I dream of being your first
to kiss you in despair
to sleep beside you peacefully
to be named and not shy
to bathe in all your glory
oh dear best friend
want you make love to me
let me die in your arms
buried in your chest, I want to find my rest
Father Figure
I use to trust you
I used to bury my worries in you
when I was left heartbroken
you were there to pick up my pieces
to defend me
I try still, to be near you
but you push me away
it hurts,
I cry everyday for your love
I cut, to feel relief
but your angry eyes wound me
I didn't do anything wrong
I try to make you proud
but my words are left empty
dad, why do you hate me now?
Copy
T,
you play such a big instrument
you are so close
to touch
yet looking like a copy of him... I can't
your hair is his
your eyes are his
your awkward smile is his
for the 1st time in 6 months
we held a conversation
its even harder to take a
step
back
But he we are
you may be sweet
something he never was
and quiet
the same
but you are a reminder
a copy of the past
and I can't fall so dark again
he even ruined that
he's gone and he still
ruins
that
we work alongside each other
you invade Ever area of my life,
my hobbies are yours
my work is ours
and its so hard to watch you everyday
like you so much
and have you remind me of everything I suffered from him
Texas
you held me close, that one night
but you pushed me away all the rest
your smile dropped my heart
and there you go
you forget our night
wasn't it enough for you?
you're confident
and insecure
you break my heart
breaking it on the daily
wait for a pulse
to shatter it again
you held me close
only to push me away
further
further
farther than before
if I say I love you
will you stay
no
you'll always leave
you held me close
for one night
that wasn't enough
enoguh for you to stay
or to withstand my desire of you
you'll always be gone
too far out of reach
you promised you were different
we were friends for 3 years first,
saw you daily,
worked alongside you,
trusted you,
then you ended on broken promises and empty lies
you said you were different that you'd never leave
so where are you?
Date
It'd been so long since I'd gone on a date,
around a year
maybe more
and then you came
you were different
quiet but talkative
it didn't feel like small talk
it must've been
did I read the signs wrong?
didn't you ask for my number
because you liked me,
because you wanted more
why'd you take the time
why'd you take about other dates
was it nothing,
was I a mistake?
why did you confuse me,
I don't know where to go
or how to let go
it was a new begining
with someone new
a person like you,
you seemed so nice, caring,
wanting to know me
maybe I really can't read people
thought I'd learned from my past
yet you managed to break all the barriers
in one rise from a chair
and one walk around the park
and yet you managed to pass all my hurdles
And now I want you