With All My Spark → Transformers

*I don't own Transformers or anything affiliated with Transformers. I only own my original characters and plots. All rights go to Michael Bay and Steven Spielberg.*

Honestly, I didn't know how I was supposed to go about this. I didn't want to do it, but I knew that I needed to for the sake of my mentality. I just couldn't handle it anymore. And who knows, he could very well be better off without me. We couldn't possibly have the life we wanted anyways. Ironhide and I were two completely different species. It never bothered me before, but like I said, I was worried about my mentality. I did find it fairly strange though how just yesterday I was asking him not to leave me, yet here I was about to be the biggest bitch in the world.

He has been the best part of my life these past four years, but I just needed a break. There was just too much stress in my life right now and all I wanted was to get rid of it. This may not be the right way to do it, but it was worth a try. I didn't even count on this being permanent though. And like the books and all those dumb quotes on Tumblr say, "fate will find a way" or "if it's meant to be, it will be". If that was the case, I guess we'd find out if it proved to be true.

With a deep breath, I opened up my apartment door and looked around my hallway to see if I could spot Ironhide anywhere. Once I spotted him by the window at the end of the hall, I stepped out onto the carpeted floor and shut my apartment door. I padded down the corridor, hoping to go as undetected as possible, but he heard me.

"Why?" he spoke, his tone dry.

I stopped in my tracks. "Huh?"

He turned around to face me; the sad look still hadn't left his face. The sight made me want to hug him, but I refrained from doing so.

"Why do you not want to be with me anymore? Have I done something wrong?" he inquired.

He sounded so hurt. I could already tell that I was going to be crying my fucking eyes out before this was over.

"No. Of course not. Why do you think that?" I took a step closer to him and placed a hand on his arm. The small gesture sent a dozen different emotions into my body and I quickly snatched my hand away, this causing him to frown.

"I believe that the situation speaks for itself, Azalea."

It was my turn to frown. "How much of my little rant did you hear?" I asked him.

He raised a brow. "The only thing I could hear walking to the door was you yelling and after that all I could hear was you telling your father and Adalyn how your mother and sister would still be living had he not brought home the truck. After that you proceeded to not blame me for the death of your loved ones, but my species. I can only assume that you had quite a lot more to say beforehand," he answered.

It would be just my luck for him to walk in when I was in the midst of ranting about shit I didn't mean all for the sake of my anger towards my dad and my best friend. I was just glad he hadn't heard the whole thing. This was part of the reason I despised being impulsive when angered.

"I didn't mean any of it. I was angry. And of course I still want to be with you. I want nothing more than to be with you," I responded as I looked out the window. The rain was coming down harder and harder. I was actually quite surprised it hadn't begun to storm yet.

"Then what is the meaning of this?" I sighed and turned to face him. Without thinking, I wrapped my arms around his waist. He was slightly startled by the action at first, but soon relaxed and hugged me back.

"All I need is some time to think, Hide. I just can't take this anymore. All I'm asking for is a break from this hectic commodity I call life," I answered quietly.