"It's complicated" Levi x Badass reader

(Chapter 21) Reuniting

I thought I'd jump off the horse and desperately run into his arms, melting as he wrapped himself around me, making me feel like the safest person in the world. I thought I'd start to fall asleep as he'd brush his fingers through my hair and tell me how glad he was to see me.

I quietly whimpered as I knew that never happened.

-

After a while of being in the shower and the final few tears dried up, the sadness faded away.

A weary feeling of nothingness overcame me as I stepped out the shower and put on my fresh gear and clothes.

I pulled over an oversized sweater and dried my hair with a towel as my mind remained empty.

I looked at my exhausted face in the misty mirror.

I looked at my eyebags and what the lack of food had done to my face, the last few pieces of my self-esteem vanished into thin air.

I sighed and tidied my things up.

I walked to my room and dumped my things on my already messy bed. It really didn't bother me, but my hunger did. I closed the door and made my way to the mess hall.

By now, it would be around dinner time.

-

I arrived at the door to the mess hall before taking in a deep breath and casually walking in. 

My eyes lit up as I saw my friends sitting together.

I gazed at them from the entrance before Eren noticed me at which he quickly ran over to me and hugged me tightly as everyone else did the same. They all gathered round me in a tight group hug and told me how worried they were. 

"Y/n we looked for you everywhere!" Armin said worried.

"Yeah we couldn't find you, the commander even sent people looking outside the walls!" Sasha said, finishing the bagel in her mouth.

I sighed thankfully as a sense of relief came over me. They were looking, they did care. I'd never needed a hug more in my life as they held me tight.

"I was outside the walls." I said as they turned to me surprised.

"But you didn't have gear, how did you survive out there?!" Eren asked astonished.

"Luck and . . .well . . . guns I guess." I said hesitantly.

"What?" Armin asked concerned.

"Don't worry about it, I'll tell you later." I said, smiling at him and placing my hand on his shoulder reassuringly.

We stayed in a hug for a while before sitting down at the table.

"So what happened? We heard you got kidnapped by that dude you saved a while back, umm .. . . Luke  . . . was it?" Armin asked.

"Yeah, um he asked me to . . .marry him and well . . . when I refused  .. . he kind of . . . drugged me." I said as they looked at me worried and truly concerned.

"B- but don't worry, I wasn't hurt or anything." I said, barely putting them at ease.

Eren looked enraged as he sat in front of me.

"That bastard! Where is the asshole now?" He asked frustrated.

At that moment I realised that I'd left Luke in the middle of no where, there was no chance I'd ever see him again. I felt relieved but also a little bad which I tried to push away.

"Well . . .uhh he's  . . . gone." I said hesitantly. I didn't want to tell them I left a helpless dude to die, even though he deserved it.

"Phew, It's a good thing you're back, I thought captain Levi was going to- " Armin begun and instantly caught me attention.