computer code and cherry blossoms ???;; senpai x reader

art - mitchimiko on tumblr

If you saw the original version of this i accidentally posted that just said "awowowooga!!!1! senpai" and nothing else. no you did fucking not <3

i keep writing too much per chapter. This one was going to consist of you, Senpai, GF, and BF at the mall, but that was going to be ~2000 words on top of another 2.6k and. i didnt wanna subject yall 2 that </3

so, thats what the next chapter's going to be. im not sure yet if im going to do one chapter about senpai's perspective and one about yours, or just mash it all together and have a thousand pov changes. we'll see when we get there, lmao. ty to everyone who has voted and commented so far !!! <3

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To say Senpai was going through a lot right now would be a severe understatement.

In a way, he was still sort of delirious from everything. He'd just been given enough of his memories to recognize he had been human-- and that something absolutely terrible had happened to him-- and he'd lashed out and threatened to possess the very people who were now driving him to the mall to get him new clothes. It all happened so fast, he almost couldn't comprehend it all. In an attempt to mak sense of it all, he tried to focus in on the current timeline of events in his head.

He thought back to the blue-haired boy in the passenger seat now. He knew him: he remembered him from high school, albeit vaguely. His name was Keith, and Senpai had been tremendously jealous of him. He seemed to captivate Cherry's attention more than Sam ever could just being himself, and it had made him lash out at him. He thought, now, if that's why he had threatened to castrate him when he'd shown even the slightest chance of one-upping Senpai in the game: perhaps it was a holdover from how he felt about him long, long ago. He'd felt threatened by him, and for the longest time, he felt like he had to compete with him in everything, just to make sure he would be the objectively better option for Cherry.

He looked at them both, now. They were... tremendously happy with each other. After all that had happened, after how Senpai had treated Cherry, after he'd threatened to kill them both.... god, he was just glad she was happy. It still hurt a little to know she had moved on, but it would have hurt even more to think of her suffering without him all of these years. Besides, what was he going to do? Try to battle her father again? Try to break her and Boyfriend up? Put her through all that heartache once more?

As long as she was happy, he was happy.

He remembered Cherry. He remembered feeling like she was the one, the one shred of genuine compassion that had truly seen him among his usual crowd of admirers, the only one who had reached below his surface and found something deeper and more genuine to adore and appreciate. He'd risked his life trying to get the chance to call her his own, and as a result, he'd lost... everything.

It hurt to remember that, too. Not only because of what her father had done to him, but the things he had said were... well, they were inexcusable. He knew that now, and even though she said she forgave him, it still twisted up his insides and made him feel downright nauseous. 

But what else was he supposed to do?