Hooked // C.H (completed)

**trigger warning: mentions of blood, miscarriage, pregnancy**

< Wednesday, 8th >

{ Adley }

I laid in the hospital bed, waiting for someone to come back with answers. Calum stayed and held my hand. He hasn't left my side. He's a nervous wreck. His leg hasn't stopped bouncing and he's constantly kissing my knuckles and my head.

The thoughts of a miscarriage are circling both our minds. We didn't even know I was pregnant. Hell, I had no symptoms or any indication at all that I might have been.

"Hey" Calum whispered, kissing my knuckles on the hand he was holding, "You okay?"

"What if I was pregnant? I didn't know Cal. What if I did something that caused me to miscarry?" I cried,

"Don't blame yourself Addie. It's not your fault" he spoke as the door opened and a nurse walked in,

"So, it looks like you were six weeks pregnant" she spoke.

My eyes teared up immediately,

"And I'm sorry to inform you but, you are miscarrying"

That's when my heart ripped. I let the tears fall as Calum's head fell to the bed, then it suddenly lifted up,

"She had appendix surgery not long ago. How did they not see that she was pregnant?" he stood,

"I don't know sir. They were looking for something specific and found it"  she spoke,

"What made me miscarry?" I asked, looking straight ahead to the wall,

"The appendicitis is what we believe"

I nodded and looked at Calum finally. His eyes were red and filled with tears much like my own,

"So what do we do now?" He asked,

"I will give her some medicine to speed the process up and that will allow you to be in less pain. You guys go home and you rest and you grieve. Even though you didn't know you were pregnant, doesn't mean you can't be sad"

We both nodded and she left to room. As soon as she was gone, I lost it. Calum jumped up on the bed, holding me to his chest,

"I'm so sorry" I cried,

"There's nothing for you to apologize for" Calum sniffles as he kissed my head.

****

We got back to Calum's house and I went straight to his room and got in bed. Calum was following me but stopped to talk to Roy. He was trying to whisper, but I could hear him and I could hear when he started crying.

He came into his room seconds later and made his way to the side of the bed I was laying on,

"Why don't you change. The doctor said you'll be more comfortable wearing loose clothes" he whispered, pushing my hair back.

I slowly sat up and let my legs hang off the side of the bed. He pecked my lips then walked to his dresser. He pulled out one of his t-shirts then helped me change and lay back down,

"Lay down with me" I spoke, barely above a whisper,

"I am" he assured and changed into a pair of shorts then climbed under the covers. He pulled me into his chest and I just started crying. Calum was crying too. I could tell by the way his chest was moving,

"We didn't even know" I cried, "I'm twenty years old and I didn't even know I was pregnant"

"I know baby. I know" Calum continuously pressed kisses to my head.

{ Calum }

I can't even begin to imagine what Adley is feeling. I know that I'm upset. I'm mad. I'm frustrated. But I know my pain can't compare to hers. Obviously, we didn't know she was pregnant and had no intentions of that happening, but it did and we just lost that baby.

I didn't know I could have such strong emotions for something I didn't even know about until a few hours ago.

Adley is twenty years old. She shouldn't have already had to experience this. She's still a college kid. She has a degree ahead of her. She has a pro basketball career ahead of her. She was so ready to go back to school. Now, she's sad and upset. She is in pain, physically and mentally. She just lost a baby- we just lost a baby. Now, she has to learn- we have to learn- how to slowly get back to life. It all just happened. We were in no way prepared for this to happen.

This is a horrible thing that's happened and now Adley and I have to process that. We have to process and grieve for a life we didn't know existed.

I slowly got out of bed once Adley was asleep. I grabbed my phone and stepped into the hallway. I couldn't make it any farther before I stopped and just slid down the wall, tears hitting me,

"Calum" I heard and Roy was hugging me in seconds, "Just cry"

"I was a dad. I was a dad and now I'm not" I bawled,

"I know" Roy spoke just as my phone started to ring. I grabbed the device and saw it was my mom.

I quickly wiped my eyes then brought the phone to my ear,

"Hi sweetheart" she spoke right away, "Adley's mom got ahold of me and told me what happened. Are you okay honey?"

I held back the tears,

"I'll be fine" I choked,

"Calum, you can tell me the truth. Son, you have just as much right to be sad and upset about this as Adley"

"How? How Mom? I'm not the one who just had a baby die in them. I don't know the pain Adley's feeling right now. Adley's pain is doubled. I'm just sitting here"

"Don't do that Calum. You are in pain too and that's okay. You lost a child sweetie"

"I didn't even know about them until today" I spoke then broke, "We aren't ready for a baby at all but we could've made it work"

"Honey, your love for a child is so big. It doesn't matter if you didn't get to meet them. You love them always. You love them before you even know them" my mom spoke, "And baby, when everything works out, you will be the best dad in the world, and Adley will be the best mom in the world. Your time to be parents wasn't now. You all knew that. Sometimes things happen for a reason baby. Maybe someone above knew you all weren't ready"

My bedroom door opened, startling me,

"I-I gotta go Mum. I love you"

"I love you too Calum" she spoke then hung up.

Adley dropped in front of me and crawled into my lap. Her face was in my neck as our arms clung to each other,

"We will be okay" she whispered, tears streaming. I nodded and held her close,

"We'll be okay"