Thantophobia // Technoblade x reader

Y/n pov.

     The sun leaked in through the curtains as it rised barely. I kept my eyes closed as I curled up into the blankets, craving their warmth. I heard a door creak open slowly and a light shuffling against the carpet. Someone groaned quietly as they sunk into a chair sitting next to the bed. A sigh could be heard as I finally hear the voice of the person next to me, "y/n..." Phil whispered, barely audible.
     "I know you can't hear me right now since you're asleep and all," He mumbles as he looks up at the ceiling, "it won't be good if you stay here... you'll probably drive me mad with worry." He huffs quietly, "what if something happens to you and I can't make it here in time.." I can hear a small sniffle come from Phil.
     I open my eyes to look at him, he's staring at the ceiling, his eyes closed as tears run down his cheeks, "I can't deal with loosing anyone else yet." He leans forward and looks at the ground, "please try and stay around a little while longer, if not for yourself, then for me, okay?" He mumbles aloud to himself before standing and wiping his face off with his hands.
     He stands there for a moment, just collecting himself, his back turned to me. I closed my eyes quickly as he turned to look at me before leaving the room finally. I let out a breathe I hadn't realized I'd been holding as my gaze drifts over to the window. The few rays making it past the curtain shown onto the end of blanket.
     I sighed and quietly climbed out of bed, I'd never think Phil would be that worried as to cry over me. I shuffle over to the curtains and pull them open, soaking in the warmth of the sun cutting through the cool air. I was already planning on going along with what they want, but now I'm even more convinced. I don't want to worry Phil anymore. It's odd how all this time I thought no one cared.

I  took a deep breathe and began to get dressed slowly. I stretched my arms into the air above me, my interlocked fingers popping from the movement.  My feet shuffle quietly across the floor as I gather clothes from a small closet in the corner of the room. I shed my old clothes and slip into a simple, loose fitting knee high dress. I lean on the edge of the bed and lift my legs to slip on a pair of calf length trousers and some high socks and older torn up boots. I pause for a moment to look into the mirror before pulling my hair back from my face. "Y/n?" Technoblade's voice cuts through the silent room. My eyes make contact with his through the mirror. "I knocked but you weren't responding.."

"I'm sorry, I must have been zoned out." A breath sounding similar to an awkward laugh sounded from me. Techno paused for a moment, finally noticing that I was more put together more than usual, "Does this mean your..?" His eyes are wide, full of hope. I can't help but let a smile form on my lips as I look at him, "Caught me red handed." I hold up my hands as if I've been caught doing something. A look of relief passes over Techno, "Oh thank god," He mumbled out, his shoulders relaxing as he spoke,  "I'll tell Philza and we'll help you gath-" 

"No need." I rub my hands up and down my arms, feeling the morning chill inside the room, "I don't need anything but Sushi." I smile at him, my eyes squinting slightly from the effort. It's odd how I can smile so easily now at the man who I was afraid of only a few days ago. His face and demeanor was a little off putting when we first met, but if I could start over, I wouldn't have reacted that way, I'm sure of it now. In the little time we've spent together, I think it's safe to say that I like him, as a friend at least. Techno.. He makes me feel safe, his voice calms me, and he's so much more gentle than I had imagined him to be. I feel my face begin to warm when I realize I've been staring at him without saying anything. 

Techno steps forward for a moment, but stops himself, I can see him become uncomfortable under my intense gaze, his cheeks turning red the longer I stare. I turn my face away, "My bad, I didn't mean to stare." He sighs and runs a hand through his long pink hair, "I don't mind, I was just... worried." My head tilts to the side slightly when I don't understand what he means, he looks away before making eye contact and making a motion with his hands to bring attention to himself, "y'know?" 

"oh.." It becomes silent for a moment before I approach him slowly and wrap my arms around him, hoping to not over step his boundaries. I can feel him tense up before quickly relaxing as he draped himself over me, his arms wrapping around me in return. He awkwardly patted my back with one of his hands and I couldn't help but laugh, causing me to break out in a fit of coughs. Techno immediately released me, "you good?" "mhm" I mumbled, "we should probably go tell Phil that I'm coming with you two." A small smile formed on my lips as he smiled down at me before he turned and quickly left the room.

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Ayo- It's been a while huh? This one is shorter than the other chapters because I've been a little busy with school, but I'm trying lmao. :,) I hope everyone is having a good time though!

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