Thantophobia // Technoblade x reader

Ranboo's pov.

     From the outside in, Techno and Phil have a perfect relationship. They have an amazing friendship, they're so close to each other you'd think they're family. I've seen Techno die for Phil and I've seen Phil do the craziest of things for that piglin he calls his best friend. Nothing seems to be able to come between them, but right now.

     The tension, the stress, the raw emotion. I can feel it all. Being in the house, the atmosphere is almost suffocating. As of right now I can only bare to stay standing outside of the door that leads into Techno's home. The emotions of the two get stronger every time they see each other. Techno seems to feel guilt about Y/N's state. I'm not sure why though, however I would most likely feel the same if I were in his position. Causing the person you love most to be in a critical state... It might destroy someone. But Techno is not near as weak as I am, I think he'll be okay. My eye's are drawn to the sky above me as I see Phil coming in for a landing next to the house. His feet landing softly against the snow. 

     Phil has been traveling out for a few hours at a time everyday. He say's he's searching for a "remedy", but I don't believe he is. Most days Phil returns empty handed from his adventures. Every few days he might return with something small, a flower, an animal,  however nothing is ever of medicinal purposes. How odd. I took my leave towards my home to avoid getting caught in that suffocating atmosphere once again. That's when I noticed it. Has Techno always had a garden of Red Tulips?

Phil Pov. 

     I landed in the snow just in time to see Ranboo departing from the house, he seems to be uncomfortable spending time over here lately. I chuckle softly to myself, I mean, who wouldn't feel awkward? Even Niki tries to avoid coming over as of recently.    

     I dragged my heavy boots up the stairs, beating them off at the door before I entered. I used my free arm to push open the door, it's loud creak announcing my entry. Techno looks up from the table, his eyes connecting with mine for less than a moment before he stood and left the room. I sighed heavily, I understand that I blamed him for y/n's state, but I didn't think it'd cause him to avoid me. I shouldn't have said that to him, my emotions had gotten the better of him.

      Every time I see him now he makes this face, it hurts me. Techno has never been one to show emotions well to others, but to me he was always an open book, right now, I wish I couldn't read him. He looks... hurt, as if every part of him aches. He hasn't spoken to me since the day we found her in the snow, he's avoiding the issue. Just like how he's avoiding the truth. Over the past few days I've accepted it. Y/n isn't going to recover from this, it isn't possible. My sweet girl... I've began to go looking for things for her. 

     I took my coat off while thinking and made my way over to the table Techno had left only a moment ago. I've been using the excuse of looking for a remedy, but I know there isn't one. How could there be? During my trips, I've been going back and forth between Techno's and Y/n's house. I've gathered a few of the things she left behind for us. For example, during my last trip I returned with some books of hers, the pages filled with doodles and notes of random things. I'd have never guessed she was the kind of person to write in books. I smiled to myself, remembering the discovery of her oldest book. The pages worn from overuse, the pages completely covered in the things she hoped for. She wrote a list of dreams she wanted to achieve in it, I don't believe she ever completed one. I sighed. I brought a flower this time. Somehow, it was still alive, the one from when she left with us. It was a tulip. A radiant one, it's pedals and buds remaining in a near pristine condition. It was hurt slightly on the trip over, but it was still beautiful none the less. I'm sure Techno would like to have it around. 

Techno pov.

     I couldn't bare to stay around Phil. He found me as the main cause of Y/n's state of weakness, if I hadn't of lost myself in the moment, she'd still be sitting in the living room, making someone smile. I quietly left the room when Phil entered, avoiding him as best as I could. I took my chance to slink up the stairs into my room. Well, I suppose I could refer to it as Y/n's room now. 

     I pushed the door open slowly, hesitating to enter. Y/n looks worse and worse every time I enter the room. I sigh and fully open the door, stopping cold in tracks when I see that she's awake. Not only is she awake, but she's standing up. She's standing by the window, her hand resting against the frame to support her fragile body. Her lips curl up into a small smile as she sees me. "Techno.."

     Her voice sounds weak and rough, she attempts to clear her throat before speaking again. "Hi." Her hands are fiddling the each other as she stands by herself. I break free from my trance as I practically run across the room to her, pulling her into my, "Oh god.." I heard my own voice, shaking and broken, breaking out across the room. She seems surprised by my reaction to her. I stand there for a moment, just holding her. I couldn't bare the thought of letting go, however, I forced myself to pull away from her. "Y/n.." 

     "Techno." She smiled, teasing me. 

     I took a deep breath. "You need to lay back down, you're not well enough to be up." I spoke as I noticed her legs beginning to give in. I ran my arm underneath hers, supporting her from around the waist, I led her to the bed one step at a time. 

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Betcha can't guess what's gonna happen next uwu lmao

Sorry this took me so long, At first it was internet issues, then being sick, then internet again, and then just straight up writers block. :/

Thanks for sticking through with me though. :)

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