Two broken souls

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Everyone stay in living room watching TV and just catching up. Everyone feel so bad for Tamara. They blame themselves that they didn't realize how much she has fake to them. Tamara stay under Loki's arm, curled in his side. Thor sit other side of her. Tamara didn't blame others, she understand that they have been busy and she haven't let them too near. Only reason Thor notices is because he has spent most time (beside Loki) with her. On Christmas Thor has chanced to something like big brother to her. And he acted like one too.

Everyone decide to go to bed around midnight. Thor hug Tamara for good night. Others smile to her and say good nights. Loki escort Tamara to her door. "Good night, love." Loki say and kiss her knuckles. Tamara quickly mask her surprise that Loki want to go his own room. "Good night." She tell him and pull him to quick kiss. Loki chuckle and happily kiss her back. Tamara slip to her suite smiling. Loki smile to her softly before entering his own. Loki didn't want to overstep her boundaries. That's why he decide to go his room rather than Tamara's this time.

After Tamara has closed door behind her. She lean on it and let her smile drop. Maybe I relax too soon. He still doubt us, well I can't blame him. He came back to find me all bloody in bathtub. Tamara sigh quietly and push herself to move. Tamara go wash her teeth and chance to tank top and shorts. "JARVIS, could you drop my room temperature back to 18 Celsius." "Yes miss." Soon Tamara feel temperature dropping. She go under blanket in bed and hope that this time nightmares won't come. She soon fall asleep.

She is in HYDRA's cell again, in pains. They have want her to shapeshift back and fort under 30 seconds. That was impossible. They punish her by whipping, they pour in her back some mercury filled water before it could heal. She has screamed in pain until her voice is only wheezing. They did that for couple days around 3 times per day. Same time they have burned HYDRA mark on her back. She couldn't eat or sleep on those days, they all blur together. Suddenly the place changed. She is now inside battle cage. She look around and see that there were new men looking at her. They were clearly making bets. She has her collar on, that stop her from shapeshifting. When she hear door open behind her, she turn around. There is only around 10 year old boy, sword in his hand. He smell of horror. He has tears in his eyes. Someone toss her a little knife. Tamara pick it up. "Fight for dead. If boy wins he get to be our new champion and guinea pig. If our champion win, well... she can have extra blanket." Man's voice laugh at them. Tamara look at the boy sadly, her hands are shaking. She didn't want to kill that boy, she wasn't that much older than him. "P-please kill me. I-I don't want to go back." Boy whisper to her so yelling men's couldn't hear him. Tamara look at him, sadness washing over her. "What they have done to you?" Tamara whisper to him back and start to circle around him. Tear slip on boy's cheek. "Just kill me please, make it quick." He plead. Tamara bolt toward him. Boy dodge that, they both know they have to look like fighting. After couple swings for both of them Tamara see that men around cage start to look bored. She give a boy little nod. Boy's eyes shine of gratitude when Tamara hit sword out of his hand and slit his throat open with knife. Boy quickly drop to ground. Dead. Tamara look at her hands, now covered in blood. "I will never get out of this hell" She whisper to herself and drop to her knees screaming. Odin's voice play around calling her males plaything and freak of nature, murderer.

Tamara bolt to sit up, screaming. She quickly cover her mouth again. Tamara has tears streaming down and sobs come out. Tamara pull her knees to her face, burying it and muffling her voice down. Tamara cover her ears, trying to block out her screaming, boys death rattle for her dream and Odin's voice, even Loki's accusing voice come up. "Please stop, Please stop,Please stop,Please stop,Please stop,Please stop,Please stop,Please stop,Please stop,Please stop,Please stop,Please stop." Tamara mumble over and over again. She didn't hear when her suite door slam open and someone rush to her bedroom. When she feel hand touch her head she jump further away in bed, rising her hands between her and stranger. "Please, no more." She whisper, her eyes tightly shut and ragging sobs escape from her chest.

Loki has rushed to her room after that blood freezing scream. He run to her bedroom. He hear Tamara to mumble something with broken, pained voice. "Tamara" He softly say and lower his hand on her head. Tamara's reaction surprise him. Her pained plead broke his heart. "Tamara, love. It is okay. I'm here, Loki's here." Loki try again and reach to touch one of her hands. Tamara slowly open her eyes after hearing Loki's name. "Loki?" Tamara whisper and lower her hands, she quickly wipe her tears away. Panic still evident in her eyes. "I'm sorry, pet. I didn't realize your nightmares have came back this bad." Loki say sadly and lower his hand. Tamara shake her head. "You can't control them Loki. Don't blame yourself." Tamara say and give Loki a pained smile.

Loki sigh sadly and climb to bed next to her, laying down. Loki pull Tamara in his chest. "Do you want to talk about it?" Loki ask softly. Tamara take one ragged breath in. "I-I'm not sure." She whisper and couple tears escape again on her eyes. Loki pet her head comforting, waiting. Tamara start to talk after couple minutes. She tell Loki what have happened in her nightmare. "I-It hurt so much, I can still feel that pain in my back. A-And that poor boy. I couldn't safe him. I could only give him as painless as possible death." Tamara's voice break and sob come out. Loki kiss her head comforting. "It is not your fault." He whisper. Loki feel his blood boiling. Some day he will hunt those bastards down and kill every single one of them slowly, as painful as possible. Tamara feel how Loki stiff under her head. She turn to look at him. Loki look angrily at ceiling. "Loki... They are all dead, remember. Only one I knew got away was Dr. Stein and he is in SHIELD's custody." Tamara whisper to him while reaching her right hand to his cheek. 

Loki growl angrily. He suddenly turn them so he is top of Tamara, straddling her. "I won't let anyone ever again to touch you like that." He growl between gritted teeth. His eyes are swimming in rage. Tamara realize she didn't feel scared at all, her mind and body trusting that Loki won't hurt her. She smile softly to Loki and cup his cheeks, making him to look at her. "I trust you Loki. You keep me safe. I'm here with you. We really should stop pushing each others away, right? I love you.... my king." Tamara say and smile to Loki more widely because of her name for Loki. Loki blink couple times, looking at her shocked. "Your... King?" Loki say and soon mischievously smile spread to his face. Tamara nod to him happily. "You have my heart. That makes you my king." Tamara's eyes are sparkling with happiness and love. Loki grab her face and soon kiss her deeply. Tamara happily kiss him back. Loki turn them around again so Tamara is now straddling him. "My queen." Loki whisper to her with adoring smile on his face and caress her cheek.

After one more kiss Tamara move to side so she could curl under Loki's arm. "I love you Loki." Tamara whisper one last time before falling back to sleep, finally feeling safe. "I love you too, Tiger." Loki murmur back to her and watch her to relax in sleep before falling back in sleep too.