Anakin/ Vader & Hayden One Shots

You sacrificed yourself during a blood filled battle with a squadron of the best bounty hunters in the galaxy. Anakin was your secret husband and his heart shattered as you died in his arms leaving him with nothing but the deep feeling of never ending mourning. What he didn't know in that moment is that you practiced to become one with the force which lead you to being able to appear as a force ghost.

!TW: slight mentioning of death!

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Word count: 1454

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My eyes shot open. What? I thought I was dead. Or was I? I looked around seeing the city lights of Coruscant. The Jedi Temple stud tall infront of me and it felt right yet so wrong. Something didn't sit right with me. I began walking straight ahead and was met with lots of my fellow Jedi's walking past me, not bothering to take a glance at me. Normally we always greeted each other, leaving me with in off feeling.

I didn't stop walking and more and more Jedi began walking into my direction. As they passed me I looked after them and after turning around, looking straight ahead again, I noticed a Jedi walking right...through me? I was even more confused than before. Then suddenly it all made sense. My training had succeeded! I was one with the force. There was just one question. Why couldn't the other Jedis see me? I never came to that level of learning before I died. I had heard stories about force users being able to be seen as a force ghost by every other force sensitive being or  about only the closest to you being able to. I really hoped that at least the last one was possible.

I thought of Anakin and our apartment. The  wonderful moments we witnessed together. My love for him. The way he had treated me. Suddenly I opened my eyes again, not having noticed that I had even closed them.
I now was in our apartment, at this point not even wondering how I came there.

I heard muffled sounds of crying and instantly regonized them as Anakin's yet have I never heard him cry like this before.
An unease grew in my stomach as I hated the fact when he was in pain. I walked towards our bedroom where the crying was coming from. Stopping in my tracks infront of the door I heard something which broke my heart.

"Why y/n? Why did you have to leave me. I hate living like this without you. And I don't know if you can hear this, force you even make me talking to air right now, most of me died that day with you. You were everything to me. The worst is also that Obi Wan keeps telling me that you...dying... couldn't have been prevented and the force had its reason but why should it? Why shouldn't the force let you live and keep bringing joy in others life's instead of this consuming pain. I tried speaking with others, like you told me to when you died, but they always told me the same... I just want you to know if you are out there that I will never stop loving you. Not one day in my now meaningless life. And I hope you can forgive me for not going to attend you funeral today but I am not able to see you there lying under the covers knowing you wont ever wake up again. Or face the other Jedi who didn't even know you like I did and then have the courage to tell me that you are in a better place taken by the force...", his voice trembled mostly at the end,"I will always love you. Forever."

His crying was more quiet now yet with so much pain in each of his breaths. I walked through the door, still not knowing if he would be able to see me. Suddenly his head shot up looking directly at me with so many different emotions. Love. Confusion. Sadness. Pain. Even anger.

He looked down again whispering, "force now I am already going insane."

I took a few steps forward causing him to raise his head to meet my gaze again. "You are not going insane, Anakin. Its me." I spoke trying to reassure him. He looked at me skeptical before standing up, walking up to me. He tried taking my hand in his but the attempt ended in going directly through my hand. "I am afraid it wont be possible for us to touch each other." I told him with a slight sigh. "You really are real, aren't you?" He questioned again causing a quick chuckle to leave my lips," I am, Ani. I became one with the force after I...you know what happened." The last part caused him to tense up like it was a threat.

"Did you hear everything I just said?" He almost whispered looking directly in my eyes. "Yes. I did." I admitted. "Then please answer me, love. Why?" I knew exactly what he was referring to. Why I sacrificed myself.

"There was no other way, Ani. Believe me." I demanded and I noticed tears forming in his eyes. "There is always another way. If I only was there earlier... I could have help you with those bounty hunters. I am so sorry" He claimed with pain in his voice.

"Anakin. Don't ever blame yourself. I knew what I was willing on to do. Someone had to do it. They were going to blow up the entire senate building. I couldn't let this happen. The Republic would have found its end." I declared still looking directly in his eyes. "I know I sound selfish and I know I shouldn't but its only been a few days but it feels like an eternity without you, y/n. I don't think I can survive without you." Anakin admitted, crying again. "You have to, Ani. You are the chosen one. You will be needed even more than I was needed then and I was just a simple knight. You don't know about how much you will help the galaxy", I told him wanting to hug or kiss him which hurt me as I knew I couldn't. "You weren't just a knight, y/n. You were, you are my life. I feel like living is pointless without you, like I only live to fulfill the prophecy, like I am just a servant to the galaxy. I feel so trapped in this role, I always have. You were my compensation, where I could be just me. You liked me for me not the role I was given. Now Its taking me in. Its the only thing in my life and I don't know if I will be able to live like that", he sobbed. I knew of these difficulties and thoughts he dealt with but never had he spoken so openly about it and it left me feeling guilty about leaving him just like that.

"I will always be there for you, Ani. Even if you probably wont be able to see me always. I know it will be different but I will listen to everything and I will try be there for you whenever you need me. I promise you that. I cant stay forever but I will as long as I can" I told him knowing it wont stop his pain but maybe ease it. "I miss you, y/n. So much that it slowly kills me too." He spoke under his breath. "I love you Anakin. So much it didn't even stop after death." I said and this caused the corners of his mouth to finally form into the slightest smile. Still. "Exactly. I want to see that face again, love. Your smile is too wonderful to be hidden behind that sadness." I told him and his smile grew slightly more. "The way you can lure out a smile of me when I feel like my heart is ripped out will always be a mystery to me." He chuckled and I missed that sound so much.

After a few moments we sat down on our bed and I listened. To everything he had to say. To everything that hurt him. To his doubts about everything after my death and more. Eventually I felt the energy that I needed to appear fade. I had to mediate before I could appear to him again to I did that. It would need it a while and I directly started so I could be there for him as soon as possible.

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Another rather sad imagine, I know. But I noticed that most of you like these the most so here you go.