A trip to hell and back (Nick and charlie)

*Nick's pov*
Me and Charlie get to the festival and look around for the gang. Lately i've been seeing charlie differently. Not in like a bad way. I've just been noticing things i didn't before, like how good his hair smells when he's just had a shower, how nice his eyes are, how good he looks in my hoodies. I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't have feelings for him. I've seen the way he gets treated for being gay i'm not dealing with that it's too hard. Even if i have to repress it, i've known for a while i could be bisexual. I mean i'm attracted to boys but i don't know if i'd actually ever do anything with them and to be honest i'm not too sure i want to find out.

"I think i see them" he says snapping me out of my thoughts. Tao, Elle, Tara, Darcy, Sahar, Issac, James, Imogen and even Tori is here with Michael. I'm not sure if Tori and Michael are dating or not neither is Charlie. Tao and Elle are dating they're honestly adorable. Tara and Darcy have been dating the longest Tara still finds it hard to ignore the homophobia. Imogen is talking to Harry so i think i'll just speak to her later fuck dealing with that. Issac and James are alone a little distance from the group and Tori is speaking to Tao and Elle.

Me and Charlie head over to the group and say our hello's before Micheal drags Tori to the stage when he hears a song he likes. Darcy pulls multiple bottles of vodka, beers, little cans of gin and tonic and some mixers out of her huge bag. We all sit down and start drinking and talking just listening to the music and having a good time.

I turn to Charlie. "You hungry? You haven't eat much today" "I'll eat something later i had a late lunch before i got to yours." He doesn't really eat much but i guess he's just a picky eater. Me and Tara go and grab some food for everyone and bring it back. "Hey guys" i turn my head "Hey Imogen" Tara, Darcy, Elle and Sahar pile on top of her as she sits down.

"Nick i need the loo can you come with me" Charlie asks. "Yeah of course, come on" i stand up grabbing his hand to pull him up. We walk over to those portable toilets and i wait for Charlie then he waits for me. As i walk out my eyes nearly pop out of my head, Ben. He's got Charlie pinned against a wall holding a bottle of beer kissing him. I quickly navigate past the people waiting to use the loo's, i can feel my blood boiling. The thought of anyone touching Charlie makes me beyond pissed, especially if that person is Ben after he's already tried this once. I'm seeing red, next thing i know i grab Ben and start punching him over and over until he falls to the ground. I hadn't even noticed that i'd attracted a crowd and i hadn't noticed that Charlie had been yelling at me to stop with tears in his eyes. I look up from Ben i'm breathing heavily and look around at all the people staring at me laughing at Ben (no one likes him) and filming. I hear our friends behind me and feel them pulling me away but i shrug them off and walk away on my own. Here's that anxiety again, i'm having a panic attack. I guess it might have been the adrenaline to set it off, i slowly slide down a tree grabbing at my chest and put my head in my knees. "Nick...is it happening again?" I look up but my visions blurred not enough to not notice it's Charlie. I mean he's pretty noticeable. I nod and he crouches down next to me and pulls me into his chest. I begin to calm down and my breathing slowly goes back to normal, Charlie usually has this effect on me. Fuck i think i like him.