Broken I

ARNA

Dreaming.

Ofcourse I am dreaming. Which men will keep a note called Important and that has his wife's favourite's and dislikes ?

I told him one day, that I am a stupid girl who is fond of a fast food. Non other than maggie. I don't care how it is made or the process. I like them. He has noted it. Like he has noted my small random talks.

And nail polish he asked why I am not asking make up items to him and I said I am not that girl you expect hridhan. I am the one who prefers to be natural and more rearly I use only eyeliners.

To my surprise, he had noted that too. It touched me deeply, realizing how much attention he paid to the little things that I mentioned in a very random talks.

And why the heck he has noted my tbr ? Like Seriously ?

What is the last line ?

Looks beautiful in every costume 😌💜 afterall my wife ☃️

Is he proud that I am his wife ?

Should I cry or what ?

I still remember my ex-husband telling me that no one would ever like me. But look at this—just look. My husband has noted all my random talks and even discovered my love for ice cakes without me ever mentioning it.

Not even my closest friends knew that about me. But he did.

Fuck-fanatas-tic.

For the first time, someone has recognized me. I don't even know how to put it into words—someone has finally acknowledged me as a person, a human being, and not just a commodity.

He knows I have scars, yet he never made me feel bad about them. I don't know what he truly feels—whether it’s disgust or something else—but he never shows it. Instead, he tries to make me feel better.

In a world where billionaires buy entire shops for their partners, I prefer Hridhan, who brings me a small flower every day. He finds out what I like without me having to say a word.

I feel overwhelmed as I stare at the text. The simple note labeled "Important" feels like nothing but magical.

I exit the note, eager to see what else he has documented.

There was another called Wishes 🧿

I opened the note excitedly, expecting to find some things I could use to surprise him.

Wishes 🧿

Cuddle her in sleep. ✔️
She ruffling my hair
Feed her with my hands.
Us cooking together. ✔️
Her legs on my lap while we watch movies so I can play with her little toes.
Make her sleep in my lap.
Play with her hair.
Hand in hand. ✔️
Tight hugs. ✔️

I know the list is so big and unrealistic 👍🏻 but yeah there is noone without wishes. I am not expection 😂

May all my dreams come true 🤞🏻🧿

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Oh my god! There were no materialistic things I could buy for him, but seriously, these are his wishes ?

Cuddle with me, feed me, cook together, play with little toes.

Little toes ?  I bent down to look at my toes. Are they little ?

"Baby, time ena achu ?" he asked in a sleepy tone, and I hastily closed the app, placing his phone near me as if I hadn't been looking through it.

"Time aachu, poi ready aavunga," I said.

He nodded, still a little sleepy. "En phone charge mattum poduriya ?" he asked.

"Na poduren, ponga," I replied, quickly sending his wishes note to my phone via WhatsApp and deleting the message from his.

After that, we had breakfast as usual. He mentioned he might be late again today. I nodded and gave him a side hug as he left for the office, closing the door behind him.

I went to our room and resumed my half-finished sketch. After a few hours, I finally completed it. I checked my phone—Hridhan wasn't online. Damini must be handling some case, and Aryan was probably stalking Sam.

I don't care.

I don’t know what happened to me that I chose to check on Hridhan first. What changed in a week ? When did his pain become mine ? Why do I care if he gets hurt ? Why can’t I even eat without him ?

Habits. That’s it.

It’s not love. It’s habits.

But what about the pain ? Does that come with habits ?

I knew I was losing myself somewhere in this. If I love him, then I should be ready to lose everything I have in my hands.

Respect.
Power.
Money.

If I’m ready to lose all these, including my independence which I worked tirelessly for, then fine. But I will not let anything go so easily.

It’s hard to accept that I am... loving Hridhan.

Yes, I am in love with him.

I have no idea when I fell for him. Was it the first day I saw him or sometime this past week ? All I knew was that I was already head over heels for him.

His little gestures, his care, the way he remembered every tiny detail about me—it was all so overwhelming. And now, realizing how much he meant to me, it felt like my world had shifted.

I wanted Hridhan by my side because he made me feel whole, cherished, comforted, understood, and deeply connected.

Yet, I couldn't shake the feeling that I didn't deserve him. My past, the things I had done, felt like an insurmountable barrier. But here, in this quiet moment, I allowed myself to acknowledge

The truth: I wanted him. Desperately.

As I sat there, lost in thought, a wave of clarity washed over me. This wasn’t just about habits. This was real. I was in love with Hridhan, deeply and undeniably.

I sighed and put my phone down, closing my eyes for a moment. Maybe, just maybe, Hridhan needed me too.

I am going to make all his wishes come true. I will do anything for him. It doesn't matter what he asks. I will.

No one else can be like Hridhan in my life. The way he has done everything for me—the moment I saw the important note, I still couldn't overcome the emotions. Who on earth would do these things for me ?

He did.

But it's still hard to let go of everything I've worked for, my independence. Maybe in another universe, I could have both independence and peace.

For now, let me prioritize my gem. But I'm still scared because he's only seen a glimpse of me. There are many scars I have hidden from the world.

I hope he won't hate me after seeing those.

Even though I'm scared, I know this is the right thing to do. Hridhan has shown me what it means to be loved and cherished, and now it's my turn to show him how much he means to me.

I believe and trust him. I know I am taking a step that feels unwanted. My plan was simple, but here I am, ready to drop everything for him.

Hope this time I won't be unlucky.

My phone pinged 'GEM 💎'

Emergency!

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Finally 🥹🫶🏻