Shadows of the past (Leoxreader)

1933

2 years later

Fathers POV

I don't know what to do with myself. I am ashamed and disgusted with myself. Why would I do this? Why did I agree to it? I kept repeating it in my head over and over. I made a promise, and here I am breaking it. What am I going to tell my wife? My daughters? I know they would hate me forever.

Here I was, sitting in my car after work with all these thoughts running through my head. Why? How? were all the questions running through my head. After a while I put the car in drive and headed home. Once home I step out of my car and head towards the steps to the house. "hi baby" I say as I walk in to see my wife setting the table for dinner. "hi darling" she says back as a smile formed on her face when she looked at me. If only she knew what I would do in the coming days.

"where are the girls?" I ask as I look around the room. "they're in their rooms finishing up homework before dinner" She walks over to me to plant a kiss on my lips. I kiss her back while I grab her hips to pull her closer to me. she pulled back as she heard the girls coming down the hall to the dinning room.

"Dads home!" they both yell as they run towards me. I turn around and bend down to their level as they engulf me into their warm hugs "I missed you girls so much". "we missed you more dad" Y/N said. A wave of guilt washed over me for a second after this sweet moment. Will they ever forgive me? I asked myself. As they left my embrace they both walked over and sat in their places at the table.

As I stood up I zoned out for a second, looking at the floor suddenly finding it interesting. "honey?" my wife called breaking me out of my trance. "coming" I say as I walk over to the table and take my seat on the other end of my wife.

As we finished up dinner and our conversations about our day, my wife takes the girls back to their room to get them ready for the night. I stood up from the table and gathered all the dishes, as I walk to the sink I could hear giggles and laughter from the room they were in. A small smile formed on my face but it soon turned into a frown.

Thoughts started running through my head again. I hadn't even realized I forgot about it at dinner. My girls being the silly kids that they are took my mind off of it. I started the water so it could warm up; I put the first plate under the running water so I could start scrubbing. Some time passed and one of the plates I was holding slipped out of my grip and shattered in the sink.

"shoot" I said under my breath. "are you okay?" my wife yells from across the house. "yeah I'm okay" I yelled back. Blood started to drip from a small gash on my palm. I turned to water to room temp to rinse it off; I shut the water off and wrapped a napkin around my palm to subside the bleeding for now. I walked over to the medicine cabinet in the second bathroom to get a band-aid and wrap it around the small gash.

After I wrapped it I just stood there staring at myself in the mirror zoning out once again. I started looking at my features; The bags that formed under my eyes these pass couple months over the stress of work and what was being demanded. A frown was almost permanently on my face except for when my wife and daughters are around. Why did I do this to myself? Im going to bring my family sorrow and grief in these next up coming days.

"My love?" my wife says as she walks into the restroom to check on me "yes?" I answer back. "Everything okay?" she looks at me with concerned and worried eyes. How I wished her eyes never had those looks in them. I loved looking into her eyes, they were my place to escape and forget about reality.

"Everything's alright love" I promise her "just some project that work has me doing has been stressing me out lately" she looks at me with love and apprecetation "I appreciate and admire all the work you do for me and the girls. They adore you so much." she said gently as she kissed my cheek. I nearly wanted to cry into her shoulder and tell her everything but I know if I did she would be in danger. "and I appreciate all that you do around the house and how you are raising our girls into women." I tell her back. She smiles and walks off to the kitchen to finish cleaning up.

What do I do? me or her

Your POV

"dads home!" me and sister scream excitedly as we run to hug him like every other time he comes home from work. as we embrace him I could feel he's a little tense. "I missed you girls so much" he said to us back; But when he said it he sounded more sad than happy. "we missed you more dad" me and sister both said at the same time. as we walked to the table to eat I looked back to see my dad just staring at the floor in a different world.

Mom broke him out of that trance and he walked over to us and sat down in his usual chair across from mom. " so Y/N how was school today?" my mother asked with a smile on her face. "we did an art project today so that was fun." I said with a smile as i picked up my fork and took a bite of the food she made. "what did you make?" she looked at me after she took a bite of her food. "I made a snowflake today by cutting the paper into different shapes" I said. "oh wow!" she exclaimed "that's impressive" she smiled at me. I looked at her after I took another bite and then I looked to my father. He looked like he was enjoying the conversation but didn't say anything.

He usually likes to make comments here and there as me and sister talk about our day at school. I couldn't hear the conversation between my mother and sister; I was too focused on my dad and looking at his facial expressions. he had a small smile on his face but his eyes looked empty. After a couple of seconds he realized I was looking at him so I gave him a smile and he smiled back a little more, Though his smile never reached his eyes.

After dinner me, my sister, and my mother went to my and my sisters room so get us ready for the night. she picked out our night gowns while telling us about her day. I loved it when she did that, she always looked so happy to be taking care of us and father. as she looked in our closet me and sister would tell her little jokes and we would giggle and laugh together.

How I wish to be just like mommy and have a nice family one day.

Hi guys! new chapter is out. if there's any mistakes let me know. hope you guys enjoyed this one, next couple chapters are going to be a little more interesting  😉 have a nice day lovely's! (or night).