Shared Spaces & Hidden Desires ? Seungcheol

YN

I woke up remembering what I did last night. Is she still here? Has she left? Is he still home?

I rub my eyes and peek at the living room through the window hoping to get a glimpse of her and him leaving so I wouldn't be stuck in an awkward situation.

Nothing.

I got out of my room as silently as possible and walked down the stairs and spotted Ms Kim. She smiles as soon as she sees me and bows, "Good morning yn. What would you like for breakfast?"

"Morning Ms Kim. Just scrambled eggs and soup is fine, thank you," I smile at her back. She nods, "Sure, I'll let the cook know. Do you need anything today?"

"Not for now, thank you," I answered and walked over to make myself my daily cup of coffee as Ms Kim leaves me alone.

I grabbed one of the chairs on the counter and took a seat sipping my coffee staring out the windows wondering what I just did last night. I lost my innocence not even to anyone but to myself. Is that better or worse?

I feel goosebumps on my body when I hear his door open revealing him in a plain black tanktop and shorts, hair a mess yet he still looks beautiful.

I caught myself looking at his direction too long and looked out the window again right away, sipping my coffee. I hear his faint footsteps coming closer and closer then he walks around me without a single word then I hear the cupboard open and close and the coffee machine whirring.

The whole room feels so tense now. I'm clutching on my cup to keep myself from rattling and just kept sipping and sipping. Is she still in his room? Should I just go to the dining area?

"Are you going anywhere?" his voice was deeper than usual in the mornings, making me shudder.

"Yes," I lied. Well shit I have to make something up then.

I better run away to my room now. I jumped off my seat and turned when he stood in front of me blocking my way, holding on to his cup of coffee. I almost bumped into him and instantly moved back and hit my back on the counter table. Fuck that hurts.

"When are you leaving?" he asks, still blocking my way as I'm trapped in between two chairs with him standing in my only way out.

My breathing starts getting heavy and my pulse escalates, looking up at his tall figure towering over me. "I don't know yet," I reply.

I'm so nervous for no reason at all. He holds my gaze not saying anything. What the hell is he doing?

"You're blocking my way, I'm trying to leave," I say as I try to stay calm. Then he slowly sips on his coffee as he steps to the side, giving me a way to leave.

I directly walked towards the dining room and called out Ms Kim. She appears almost instantly, "Yes yn?"

"Is my breakfast ready? I'll get changed first if it's not done yet," I say, hoping for it not to be ready yet.

I couldn't stay calm, I felt his eyes staring into me and I just wanted to run away. Then Ms Kim saves me from my torture, "Ah, he's still preparing your soup now. It should be done by the time you finish getting changed."

I internally breathed out a huge sigh of relief and nodded as I turned away, walking up the stairs as fast as I could without running.

Seungcheol

Thank goodness she's going out but when? She said she doesn't know yet so now what? I don't know when I can ask Yewon to leave. What if she leaves my room and yn sees her?

She starts walking up the stairs to her room. This is it, this is the perfect time to make her leave. I immediately went into my room and saw Yewon already fully dressed sitting on the small couch in my room.

"You should leave now. Let me send you out," I quickly told her and she followed me without asking questions.

I look up at her room and around hoping she hasn't come out yet as I lead Yewon out the front door to the public lift. "I left my number in your room, call me," she says as she walks in the elevator.

I turned away as the doors shut without answering her and went back into our penthouse sitting back where I was earlier drinking my coffee like nothing happened.

Not long after, she comes down in a plain white t-shirt that comes down to her thighs. How the hell does she look that hot with just a t-shirt on? I shift my eyes away from her and look down at my phone. I don't want her to notice I stare at her for a second too long all the time.

YN

I really don't feel like going out or even meeting anyone today but I already lied to him that I'm going somewhere. I can just say it got cancelled I guess. Why am I even panicking?

I went to get changed to my most comfortable oversized t-shirt and just as I'm passing by my small window to leave my room, I saw him guiding the girl out the front door and not through our private elevator.

Oh boy, you thought I didn't see you last night? You really thought I wouldn't be able to hear you last night? It pissed me off even more that it seems like he's trying to be secretive about it.

I wait until he comes back in and wait for a few more minutes before I finally leave my room and walk down to have my breakfast. I took a seat on the dining table where I saw my meal already nicely prepared for me.

I start digging in when I hear him walking over to me and takes a seat in front of me. Seeing him trying to sneak her out earlier really annoyed me, so I decided to fish it out of him, "You came back pretty late last night."

He froze. Great, that's the reaction I wanted.

"Were you enjoying yourselves?" I casually threw it out as I dug into my soup.

He still stayed in the same position trying to hide his shock. "Hmm?" I tried nudging him to say something and he still didn't say anything.

"Sounded like you were," I continued as I looked up at him chewing on my eggs.

Seungcheol

Fuck. So she knew. She heard us. I tried so hard to hide it from her and it turns out I had nothing to hide. Did she see me sending her out just now?

She's looking at me with her innocent eyes, teasing me, trying to pull something out of me. What the fuck do I say to that? What kind of answer do I give her?

"Be quiet next time so I can sleep," she finally says and stands up to leave. Fuck.

I can't run after her and try to explain myself. What the fuck do I even say to that?

It felt good because I was picturing you.

It would've been better if it was you.

I can't say those things.

What the hell has our relationship come to? We used to share everything and lean on each other for everything. Why did that happen to us that made us this way?