Double Trouble?

I woke up around 8 a.m., finding myself wrapped securely in Force's arms. I turned to look at him, and he was busy sleeping. Last night's nightmares and terrors came to mind, and I subconsciously just held onto his shirt tighter.

He felt it and woke up, looking at me sleepily. "How do you feel, baby?"

"Hmm, better now that I am in your arms. I.. I'm sorry for last night."

"Never say sorry for wanting me by your side, ok? I shouldn't have left you. Will be by your side always. Promise."

"P.."

"I mean every word, Phuwin."

"Move in with me."

"P... why... why would you want me?"

"What do you mean?"

"I'm.. I'm tainted, aren't I? Why would you want me? I'm really nothing like my former self. I don't know if I can ever move on successfully. I'm just too much trouble for you or anyone P."

Force looked at me for a very long while. Then he finally spoke softly. Softly but firmly, the honesty seeping through every single word.

"What do you mean by tainted? If you being manhandled by that manager against your will is called being tainted, then I'm tainted too for even letting you walk into that situation. If by tainted means you having to go through all of these night terrors and nightmares daily despite therapy which also busts your ass on another note, then I am also tainted for letting you go through this daily. I don't expect you to move on successfully instantly. You take as long as you need. But I just want and need you to know that I am always going to walk by your side as you go on this journey. I have fallen in love too much with you to even let you think of making this journey alone. Not a chance, definitely not in this lifetime."

"P..."

"I love you baby."

I looked at Force, his eyes teary but his lips quivering at every word he spoke. I leaned in, nodding, agreeing to move in with him.

"I love you too, Force."

Force smiled as he heard me call his name finally. He leaned in, asking for permission before kissing me softly on my lips.

The kiss deepened slowly, Force cupping my face as he kissed me harder. I held onto his shirt, fisting it tightly in my hands as I felt this unspeakable emotion bubbling through me. It was definitely not anger, nor fear but rather a desire. A need. A want.

A need to have more of Force in my hands, a want to have more of Force in my grasp.

"Force.." I gasped.

"Yes baby?"

"I want..more."

"Sure?"

"Yes, please." I moaned. Force smiled cheekily into the smile.

"Happy to oblige baby..." Force muttered lowly as he gripped my waist, pulling me up onto him. I straddled him, with Force pulling off my shirt. I unbuttoned his, running my hands down his chest. My fingers stopped at his shorts, and as I leaned in to kiss him, my hand slipped into his boxers.

As I kissed Force, I started palming him. Force bucked into my hands and started to leak slowly. I started stroking him, slowly at first but started to pick up my pace. Force sucked and bit my neck as I stroked him faster and harder.

"Ugh." Force whined as he got antsy. He pushed over onto the bed, and hovered over me. His eyes glimmered as he took in my tousled hair, red swollen lips and marked neck. He took off my shorts, going down on me.

"P.." I gasped as he went down on me, mouthing me.

"Fuck.." I breathed out, in desire. Force kept sucking me off and I released my load on him. He just licked up my cum as he peppered kisses up my chest and came up to me.

"Baby.."

"I want more. Please."

Force nodded as he started fingering me slowly. 1 in first, then as I got comfortable, followed by 2. I clung on as 3 entered me.

"You are so fucking tight; Phuwin."

"For you baby."

Force groaned as he kissed me harder, pulling out his fingers and slowly thrusting himself inside.

"P..."

"Either call me baby or Force in bed. If you call me anything else, you will be punished."

"P...punished? How?"

Force gripped my waist tightly, murmuring I wouldn't want to know. I grinned cheekily as I murmured, "But P.. I wanna know.".

Force growled as he thrusted harder into me. He kept thrusting into me as I kept calling him P endlessly. But soon my voice died out, my moans engulfing the room instead with Force's thrusts only filling the gaps.

Before we both realized it, Force had released into me. I just looked at Force, fucked out of my mind.

"Baby.."

"Yes?"

"That was so good."

"Hmm hmmm." Force grunted as he pulled out of me, laying in bed next to me.

"Baby..."

"Yea?"

"Thank you for loving me.."

"Thank you for letting me love you Phuwin."

"Okays P."

"What did I say about calling me P in bed?"

"That I will be punished?" I turned to look at Force cheekily. He groaned as he grabbed me by my waist and pulled me closer towards him.

"You are really a cheeky monkey, aren't you?"

I laughed as Force held onto me, kissing me softly on my forehead. I watched as he dozed off soon after.

I don't know what I did but I knew this man deserved so much more and yet he chose me unfailingly. With those thoughts in my head, I held onto Force, resting my head on his chest and falling asleep soon after, too.