Unpredictable ? Jerrie

Jade

I slowly walk by the lockers to class in high hopes that Perrie would appear beside me. She didn't exactly promise but I just wish she would come.

As I turned a corner I felt a wave of wind hit me. " Perrie?" I say as I look back.

But no sign of her. " Actually it's just Harry."

I gave him a slight smile and gave him a wave. " Hey Harry."

" You're not really energetic today," he told me. " Usually you're high with energy. Something wrong?"

" Didn't really think you could tell the difference. Perrie's at home actually," I say. " She felt quite unwell earlier. "

" You were together?"

"Harry you were with us. Remember during music yesterday?"

He took a moment and laughed. " Right. But come on," he told me. He then randomly interwined his fingers with mine and I followed him into class.

In my mind I wondered why he decided to hold my hand. Was it one of his friendly gestures?

I let go as soon as we reached the door. " Something wrong?"

I shook my head. " I don't want anyone thinking we're dating."

" Oh. Right. Sorry." he told me as entered before me and went to the front to where we sat yesterday.

When the entire class was inside we immedietly got to work.

I pulled the folder out of my bag and opened it.

" What's that?" Harry asked.

" It's Perrie's sheet music. It has the lyrics for her song."

"Ok."

I then flipped the plastic sleeves over until I got to Right Now.

I slid my finger into the plastic and pulled it out. But suddenly another sheet of paper fell out.

Harry bent over and picked it up. He opened it carefully and read it out loud.
" I Just Fall In Love Again"

"I never saw that yesterday," I say. "Can I have a look?"

" Of course." he smiled as he handed me the paper.

I took the paper away from him and skimmed through the lyrics.

Dreaming, I must be dreaming or am I really lying here with you. Baby, you take me in you arms and though I'm wide awake I know my dream is coming true.

Through the intro I ready felt the emotion through her beautiful selection of words.

And oh, I just fall in love again. Just one touch and then it happens every time. There I go by just fall in love again and when I do. I can't help myself I fall in love with you.

I feel like the stars alligned the moment my mind had read each line of her chorus. It was beautiful.

I then turned the page over to see my name sketched in the corner with pencil. Around it were hearts and Perrie's signature.

And there I knew it was written for me and before Harry could speak I felt tears well in my eyes.

" It's about me," I mumble. " It's about me," I laugh as I wipe the liquid off.
" Oh my god."

I then grabbed the folder and read each song properly.

I first went to Secret Love Song.
The song is about a Romeo & Juliet like situation, where forbidden love must be hidden behind closed doors and not displayed in public areas such as streets and dance floors, it also seemed to be in two perspectives.

The first seemed to be Perrie's and the second was mine?

I honestly had no clue.

Next was Wherever You Are
It was about two people that knew their goodbye was coming, they tried to ignore it and not think about it. They want to live in the moment and be happy, so that they could enjoy their last time together until they meet again.

Wherever You Are seemed quite like Perrie's departure from me when she went to Japan. We acted like a long time couple that couldn't stand a long distance relationship (LDR). I mean she was going to leave me for 3 months. What was I supposed to do? Go to a bar in hopes to hook up with another girl every other weekend?

Actually wait. I'm not gay.
But if I rethink that I actually am.
I have feelings for Perrie and we're
'kind of' dating.

But moving on I read one more song she had composed. It was simply just I Love You.

Instead of reading everything I decided to read the verse that seemed to stand out the most to me.
It went:

I just wanna scream out 'til my voice breaks. Even if the tears fall and my heart hates me. I just wanna know how I can save me. Even if these three words choke and take me. Baby I love you.

Then and there in front of Harry, my professor and my classmates my tears had released and were continously running down my cheeks.

" Jade? I - what happened?" Harry asked me.

" Nothing," I sob as I pack my things away. "The songs. Everything she composed. They're about me. I need to go."

I stood up from my seat and wipes the liquid with the back of my hands.
I walked over to my professors desk and stopped before him.

" Jade. You're crying. What's wrong? Do you want to be dismissed?"

I nod. " Yeah I - I need to go. Perrie needs me."