message // sidemen + minizerk ff

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• Z: hi guys
• Z: I know none of you talk anymore.
• Z: I know we all got into a fight.
• Z: I know we were all stupid enough to let it get the best of us
• Z: I'll be the first to say I'm sorry.
• Z: I shouldn't have yelled at you, Ethan.
• Z: I shouldn't have told you all those insults and foul things
• Z: I'm sorry
• Z: I didn't mean them.
• Z: I'll always hate myself for ever letting those words come out of my mouth
• Z: you meant no harm and all I did was make it worse.
• Z: I love you dude, I'm so sorry
• Z: I'm sorry you had to leave because you cried, Tobi.
• Z: I'm sorry that it was over us
• Z: I should've went after you to comfort you as your best friend, but I couldn't
• Z: I'm sorry.
• Z: tell your brother I love him
• Z: and please keep safe, you probably don't want to see me after all the shit I did that night
• Z: I'm sorry I yelled at you JJ.
• Z: I got angry and I was upset. My everything was broken and I took it out on you when I should've looked for reassurance and confided in you.
• Z: I'm just selfish and foolish.
• Z: I'm sorry, JJ. I really am.
• Z: Harry, Vik, I'm sorry for how I acted that day too. I was shattered and upset and seemed so uninterested in you two
• Z: but you're both out of the city and left the chat weeks ago
• Z: you won't be accepting my apology soon anyways
• Z: I'm such a wreck
• Z: thank you guys for being awesome friends. I'm sure one day we'll regroup and go out to play football or go shopping in town or something like we promised
• Z: one day, okay? I won't drop out or blame it on the weather, I'll go just to be with you guys again...
• Z: I love you all
• Z: please stay safe
• Z: and if you wanna talk or anything or you need something...
• Z: just send me a message.

Z has left the chat!

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• z: do you remember when you asked who josh was when we first met
• z: well this is who I really am
• z: some asshole who ruins everything
• z: I sort of hope you regret finding me on instagram
• z: none of this ever would've happened
• z: maybe I wanted some of it to, but I ripped apart everyone and now we've all separated
• z: or maybe you're all still together, but you've excluded me out of it
• z: no
• z: you guys never would do that
• z: or maybe you would.

• z: I hope you're more happy with her than you were with me
• z: yes, I saw your instagram post, you look really happy
• z: you both do
• z: your eyes were never that bright... they look beautiful simon
• z: she's very pretty too. her hair is gorgeous
• z: you always found redheads pretty
• z: I was always jealous that I wasn't good enough
• z: that's funny because I guess I really am not good enough
• z: it's my fault tho, it's all my fault
• z: sometimes I wish I could just shut my mouth close forever sometimes
• z: also my theory was right... partially
• z: I also saw you post that picture of you, JJ, and Ethan
• z: you all look happy
• z: I'm sorry simon
• z: one day I'm calling you the most perfect human being, kissing you for the first time and learning your body, the next I'm alone in my room in the dark, watching the rain trickle down the window while fleetwood mac plays in the background
• z: I'm depressing
• z: but I guess I overcame a lot with you
• z: this is me, some fucked up human who can't decide who they are or who they love
• z: someone who throws away perfect boys and perfect friends
• z: I shouldn't blame it all on myself tho
• z: but what can I do.
• z: it's back to sitting alone and wishing for a miracle to happen
• z: but I guess a notification in the middle of the night that a cute boy has dm'ed you on instagram is all I'll get so far in my life
• z: it's been good, simon.
• z: you've been good to me and I promise I won't forget everything you've done for me
• z: this is my goodbye
• z: forever? maybe not. for now? most likely
• z: but maybe I'll explore the world, travel to places I've never been
• z: maybe I'll change my look. maybe I'll rethink my life choices
• z: but this is our departure simon minter
• z: please find some way to get a hold of me if you need me
• z: someone will know where I am
• z: someone will
• z: but I guess this is it
• z: I guess this is the end of Z and Simon.
• z: it's kind of funny, because z is the end of the alphabet
• z: and this is the end of us.
• z: I love you. I always will.
• z: remember if you ever want to talk or anything... just
• z: just find a way to send me a message.

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