the deluded ones [#2]

june 23rd, 2017

a year ago, i was in mourning. my mind, it was incapable of thinking of anyone else but him.

yet, even then, i hoped. i prayed that someone, anyone, would walk into my life and make me forget everything about him. even though i knew those ideas were fictitious and i refused to delude myself into thinking of such things, including a happiness with him that i knew would always be chaotic and fake, it happened.

i let my heart heal and forget him, but the spot he left behind became preoccupied by who else but you.

you came into my life as nothing more than a friend, but you became so much more than that. you became someone who helped me patch my wings so i could fly. you didn't snip at my feathers and tear me apart everyday. you supported me by listening and taking my trust to protect and not purposely harm.

you took his spot, but maybe it was never his to begin with. maybe it was just an empty space. like a bird searches for the safest spot to land and make a home in, others search and inhabit the spots i've saved in my heart. some find it distasteful after a time and move on, but others stay and find comfort in the mysterious familiarity.

i hope you'll stay, i really do, because you made me forget all about him and start to think about you.