the deluded ones [#2]

june 28th, 2017

to begin anew,
it's time,
and you know it too.

one story ends,
another begins.
hope flusters in
at its greatest,
and i find my heart
wishing in earnest
for a start to something great.

the future and its incredulous unpredictability,
it will never cease to scare me
and amaze me
in its moments of need,
fading and growing at ease
within me.

i have hopes for a new start,
a new beginning with newer people,
but, even so, no beginning begins
until an action takes place.

so, i challenge myself again
to start again,
to be who i am again,
to discover others, as well as myself, again,
and to hope again.

and i hold the names of some
in my aging heart
and hope that the ones that matter most
never leave or cease to be.

and, even though you aren't on my mind
at each second of every day and night,
you still linger distantly in the background
because, although i wish to move on as best as i can,
i wouldn't want to move on
without you
unless you truly wanted me to.