Let Me In [YOONMIN]

Yoongi's POV

A silent night leads to many thoughts. Thoughts about the world, universe, life and death and even love.
It sucks when you start spiraling about it all and you don't have anyone to vent to, but more importantly, someone who understands.

Being in college felt lonely most of the time. I kinda did that to myself though, since I never cared to attend any social events, parties or clubs. I focused on my school work and my music.

My dorm still had two twin beds but I put all my stuff on the other.

As much as I enjoyed my peace and quiet, I'd be lying if I said I didn't want someone to love, but I had no idea how to open up and let someone in my life.

I wasn't completely anti social though, I had and still have a few good friends and they've been good to me ever since I met them. They understand that I'm not that type to hang out much and party so they sometimes come to my dorm to watch a movie or chat up while having a drink.

Seokjin, Namjoon and Hoseok are the best kind of guys you could find but I'd never fall for any of them.
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention I'm not even close to being straight. The guys are pretty straight from what they told me but some of them say they wouldn't mind experiencing and trying out more things, what ever that means.

One afternoon the boys decided to come to my dorm, they hadn't been in a few days so I was happy to hang out with them and leave the thoughts for later.

"Tomorrow the freshman are coming in." Namjoon reminded me as he handed me a can of soda before sitting down beside me on the couch.

"Ugh, don't even remind me. Last fall it was so annoying to deal with them all day. Can't believe time went by so fast." I said and rolled my eyes after I took the soda from Namjoon's hand.
"Thank you."

"Hey, you were there once." Jin said. He was sitting next to Namjoon.

"Actually, I wasn't. I never asked anyone a question, I figured it out all on my own." I said triumphantly and took a sip from the can.

"Congratulations." Hoseok said sarcastically and laughed.

"Oh shut up."

"Seriously, you need to get out there Yoongi. Find someone that likes music or what ever the hell else you like. You're attractive, you're a bitch sometimes but I think you can make up for it with other things." Hoseok said again, his brows raised.

"Why are you always so dirty minded?!" I said and pushed him while the others were chuckling.

"He's right though, when will you let anyone in your life? Maybe you'll find a cute freshman tomorrow."

"No, I'll never date a freshman. I'm a junior, and I have plans for the future and they'll be stuck in this college while I'm out there."

"Never say never. This isn't high school Yoongi. It's different now, everyone has more freedom, you know that." Namjoon said as he grabbed a beer from the fridge.

"Eh, I don't know. Whatever, it doesn't matter. I don't really care."

But I did care.

I've never been in an actual relationship before, I've only had a few hookups but they didn't mean anything, for anyone. I need something more. I want to feel desired but for who I am. I want someone to burn for me as much as I burn for them.

A guy can dream.

The next day arrived, the day all the irritating freshmen would wander around looking like lost puppies.