Let Me In [YOONMIN]

YOONGI'S POV

I knew I had a shitty past that hadn't left me completely. I knew what I was doing was erroneous and I felt horrible about it every day, but I couldn't stop either. I knew I didn't need to do this, I wasn't in need of money, I didn't need to ship large amounts of heroin and other type of drugs around the world to make huge amounts of money but I did.

I decided to leave that business and actually do something profound but, even in college I did those type of things on the side.

If I had gotten caught, I'd face so much time in prison but what was worse is I'd break Jimin's heart. I've never told him about this and I knew he would leave me the second I did, but I hoped his love wouldn't allow him to leave.

This business is what made me this fucked up person; mean, introverted, not wanting to fall in love because of the risks. However, Jimin was different.

He made my stomach flip in ways I never thought it could, his sweet aura that he would bring with him into the door that made me smile was something I couldn't live without anymore.
I was falling so deeply in love with him as much as I didn't want to.

Since I had class in the morning and Jimin didn't, I let him sleep in most days but that one damned day he decided to deep clean the dorm after so long and found my shit that he wasn't suppose to. That is what changed everything.

I opened the door and found Jimin sitting on the couch, his eyes squinting once he saw me and his lips pursed. Tears were also streaming down his cheeks and I wondered what had happened.

"Jiminie? What's wrong?"

"Don't you 'Jiminie' me, Yoongi. I found your fucking shit. Is this what you meant when you told me you had a shitty past?! That you worked for an international drug cartel? Huh?!" He shrieked, he actually scared me a little.

"I can't believe you'd keep something like this from me. You lied to me. You kept something so fucking important from me. So what? Is this how you're rich? Was that a lie too?! Answer me!" He demanded, his face looked awful, dreadful, full of hate for me.

His arms were crossed against his chest as he stood up and waited for me to tell him.

"No, my family is wealthy but...I just had gotten carried away by an old friend. He told me that it was easy money and lots of travel and that's all I wanted to do. Travel. But I didn't consider the risks." I explained as softly as possible but Jimin was ready to explode again.

"The fuck you mean you didn't consider the risks?! You didn't know you've been committing these crimes all this time?! Do you know how long you'd go to prison for if you got caught?! Why didn't you tell me?!" He yelled, his frown never left his eyebrows as he looked me in to eyes.

"I'm...I...I didn't want to lose you Jimin. You're the first person I've actually had real feelings for. I never cared for anyone, I always just fucked around but you...I'm falling in love with you." I confessed, but Jimin just exhaled and shook his head then bit his bottom lip as he starred me down.

"No...you don't get to say that. You technically lied to me by keeping this secret from me. I'm not going to be with a criminal." He said, his words felt like stabs in the stomach, it hurt way too much. I couldn't let him leave me. I needed him.

"Jimin please, don't leave me. You can't leave me. I'll get out of it, I promise you. I-"

"No! Fuck you! If you were an honest person you'd be out of this mess a long time ago, when you started college, you'd be done and moving on with your life! You would have at least told me!"

He kept yelling, his voice was intimidating and I didn't know what else to say because he was right.

"Jimin...I'm sorry. I really am. But please don't walk out that door. I'll fall apart without you." I mumbled, my voice cracking, my throat felt dry as I watched Jimin get his things together.

I approached him and grabbed his arm but he pushed me away rather forcefully.

"Get away from me!" He snapped but I wasn't going to give up this easily.

"Jimin please!" I cried and grabbed his arm again.
"Please baby, I will give up anything for you. I will-"

"Just stop." He turned around and pulled his arm back again, "don't feed me more lies. I'll be honest. I felt a lot for you Yoongi, and I'd be lying if I told you that they're suddenly gone because of this but you're a bad influence and I should have listened to you when you told me that. Remember? When we first met. I wanted to see the good in you and I did but...this? This is outrageous. I'm sorry." He said, his voice softer this time, then went back to packing his stuff.

"But where will you go? How are you just going to leave me after all these months?!" I asked, the tears non stop.

"I don't know...but far away from you. It hurts me like hell but, I have to say goodbye Min Yoongi." He said and looked at me once more then walked out the door.

My heart was broken once the door shut so I just fell on my bed and sobbed in agony. I've never felt this kind of pain in my life, it was the worst pain I've ever felt, my soul was in pain, aching and longing for Jimin to be here next to me.

I was never soft, never cared about anyone's feelings because I was always the heartbreaker. I broke so many hearts in the past but this was so different. My eyes had swollen up from all the crying and I had no motivation to do anything.

I had so many dreams for the future with Jimin but it was all over. No. I couldn't let him go like that. I couldn't let him slip out of my life so suddenly over this. I was going to get him back, one way or another.