Our Existence {SaeyoungxReader}

Your POV:

As I open the door to where the RFA party will be held within the next few hours, I watch as Yoosung and Jaehee work hard to organize the food in a way everything will stay separated. I put my phone in the back pocket of the new jean shorts I bought the other day, and I straighten out the new top I also got.

"Need help?" I call out to the members on the other side of the room.

Both Yoosung and Jaehee immediately turn their heads toward me. They both smile as they see me.

"A little." Yoosung calls back.

I smile as I walk over to them and start placing and rearranging all the food, plates, and cups. A memory of an early RFA party comes back to me as I watch Yoosung almost spill a plate of food on himself. The memory was me and Yoosung as we were preparing the food table, and Yoosung tripped on his own foot while carrying a plate of food. I felt bad since he was really upset and Zen and Saeyoung were both laughing hysterically at him.

"Hey, Y/n?" I heard Yoosung's voice from beside me.

I look over and see Yoosung standing next to me with a concerned face.

"Yes." I reply. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing. I was just wondering if you were okay? Since the whole meeting thing happened." Yoosung asked.

"Yeah. I'm okay." I answered and got back to work.

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The party starts in about thirty minutes and all the RFA members, except MC are here. After finishing with the last of the party decorations with Jaehee and Yoosung, I walked over to the boys, who were talking. As we walk over, Saeyoung looks right at me and smiles.

"Are you okay?" Saeyoung asks me with full concern. "I've been trying to contact you, but you never answer. I was getting worried."

"Oh... because of the whole thing that happened at the meeting. Yeah. I'm okay." I reply.

"Promise?" Saeyoung questions.

"Promise." I said truthfully with a smile. "Have I ever broken a promise to you?"

"No, you haven't. Okay, I believe you." Saeyoung smiles.

"Also. Thanks for standing up for me, even though MC is your girlfriend." I said to the red head while playfully and lightly punching his arm.

"MC wasn't right to go against you like that. Although what you said about MC not being in the family bond that we have created with the members wasn't very nice, I agree with everything else you said." Saeyoung said then his eyes lit up, like he remembered something. "Oh. I need to talk to Zen right now."

I nodded to show I was listening to Saeyoung and watched as he walked away.

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It has now been an hour and a half since the RFA party started and every guest is here.

I let out a sigh and walked to the table Jaehee, Yoosung, and I had set aside for out group to sit and eat. At the table it was only Saeran who was sat there, so I decided to sit next to him. As I sat down there was nothing but silence between us until Saeran started to speak.

"You know. Saeyoung told me that you were always there for him while we were separated from each other." Saeran said, breaking the semi awkward silence between us.

I smiled as I remembered how I was always there for Saeyoung after he told me about his secret. I never once broke the smallest of a promise, therefore he was able to trust and tell me things about himself that he couldn't just tell any RFA member or ordinary person.

"When I asked him about it, Saeyoung took a long time to answer. He must have been thinking about a lot." Saeran continues.

I stay silent and rethink about the day Saeyoung told me everything.

"My brother definitely cherished some of those memories. I'm surprised at how the other members are okay with those two being a couple, since you and Saeyoung have been through a lot together." Saeran admitted.

"The other members don't know about what happened between Saeyoung and I. How we have such an indestructible bond is the outcome of me always being there for him. The other members must have been told mostly everything about Saeyoung when they went to go save you. I guess he didn't tell them about everything we went through." I told Saeran.

"Honestly, I don't like my brother with that girl. She manipulates him way too much. It reminds me of the way I was treated and lied to. " Saeran looked down at the empty plate in front of him, then he looked at me. "I think you and Saeyoung would make a better couple than them. You won't try to control him like she does."

I looked at Saeran with wide eyes and an extremely red face. I was at a loss of words.

Before I could find the right words to say back to Saeran, he got up with his empty plate and walked over to the food table. My eyes shifted over to MC and Saeyoung, who were laughing, talking, and kissing each other on the cheek or lips. The sight made me feel like I was going to throw up.

I sighed and got up from the table. I walked out of the room and went to the roof of the building the party room was rented from.

As I opened the door, I looked around to see if anyone was up here, thankfully no one was. I walked over to the glass fence, that is there so you don't fall, and I crouch down next to it. I bury my head in my hands and let my tears that have been building up ever since the day I got back home out. 

I start to reminisce about the time before MC was in the organization. Before she was here, Saeyoung was always laughing and making jokes in the chatroom. The chatroom was Saeyoung's only escape from the cruel, dark world he was living in. It was the only place Saeyoung could let loose. Everyday there were a bunch of new jokes and pranks Saeyoung would play. Now Saeyoung doesn't really play pranks anymore and he doesn't seem like he is enjoying himself anymore.

'If only Saeran had joined RFA and didn't get brainwashed and thrown into Mint Eye.' I thought to myself as my tears started to slow.

I took a deep breath and tried to regain myself. I stood up and walked back into the building.

'If only Saeran was with us before, I would not have had to deal with MC and a constant heart break.'

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A/n: Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed!