Our Existence {SaeyoungxReader}

Saeyoung's POV:

It has been few weeks since I accidentally burned my hand while making cookies with Y/n. My hand is now fine, but my heart isn't. Every spare moment I get, I am left reminding myself of everything that happened that day. From the back hug I gave Y/n to the way Y/n helped me when I got burned. Everything replays in my mind, sending my heart soaring and my stomach overfilling with butterflies. All these things remind me of how I felt when I realized I was in love with MC, and I am left in confusion.

Y/n has been by my side for so long. She has been by my side every time I was left in the dark and felt upset over my past and Saeran. It feels as if I made the wrong choice letting MC in my life.

When I think back to when MC first joined RFA and how I felt about her, I was sure that was love. Back then, we had a connection. We had something, however she cheated on me, causing that connection to disappear.

On the other hand, when I think about Y/n, she has been there for me for so long. She has helped me with so much, and there was no doubt that with a little bit more time, she would have helped me get Saeran back. Maybe, just maybe, V would be alive and things would be much different, if I convinced Y/n to stay and not go on that trip.

MC has already left me. She cheated on me with someone else, and didn't remember a thing when I asked her about all the things we went through. Things between us were rushed. Maybe with more time without us dating, I would have realized that her love was wrong and forced. After I broke things off with MC, Saeran told me how he always saw how MC made things her way. When he said that, I saw it too, but it was too late.

Thinking back to what Zen told me that one day, about how I needed to choose MC or Y/n. I chose MC, thinking she would stay with me all my life only to find out that she had been cheating on me for who know how long. Y/n was the right choice. She has never hurt me anywhere near the same amount MC has. Yes, we have had disagreements, but never to the point where my heart was absolutely shattered.

When I think about all these things, I question how I feel about Y/n. I wonder if I was in love with her before she left on that trip, and I didn't want to hurt her or ruin our friendship. I wonder what would be different if I did acknowledge my feelings.

I also think that since I feel the same way about Y/n that I did with MC, when I first fell in love with her, won't everything just end the same. It is always said that history repeats itself, so my heartbreak might happen again. With that, I will have also lost someone so precious to me.

Whenever I see Y/n, I can't help but get all flustered. I can't tell if I am good at hiding it, but I still try.

Right now, we are having another RFA meeting at my house, about the next party. Y/n and Jaehee are making plans and writing down notes, as the rest of us either vote on something or throw out ideas.

During the middle, I get a call from one of the companies I applied for. I excuse myself and answer my phone in the room adjacent to the living room, where we are all sitting.

"Hello?" I say into the phone.

"Hello. Is this Saeyoung Choi?" A man's voice who I have never hear speaks through the phone.

"Yes," I answer.

"Good. I am the assistant of Mr. Lee, the CEO of Programming Professional," The man said. "I'm calling you to inform you that we have accepted you for the position you applied for. We would like you to start in three days."

My heart dropped and my eyes teared up, as the man told me I was accepted into one of the biggest programming companies in the world. I have been looking for a job ever since Saeran joined the RFA.

"Yes. Of course," I say. "Wait. You aren't going to interview me?"

"There is no need. We saw your skills, and we haven't seen anyone as skilled as you," The man says. "We'll see you in three days then?"

"Yes. Thank you." I smile.

When the man hangs up, I let all my emotions loose and start crying. With my phone in my right hand and my left hand trying to dry my tears, I walk into the living room.

"Saeyoung. What's wrong?" Y/n asks, standing up from the couch.

With out thinking, I drop my phone on the couch and go over to Y/n. I bring her into what is an unmistakable embrace, holding her as tight as I could. Y/n was the one to suggest this job to me, so I owe everything to her.

"Saeyoung. What's wrong?" Y/n repeats.

I pull away from Y/n and look her directly in her eyes. I wipe away my tears and put on the biggest smile I could.

"I got accepted into Programming Professional." I say.

"Really?" Y/n replies, probably in disbelief that they accepted me so easily.

"Yeah. I owe every dollar that I make, at this place, to you. You're the reason for all of this." I say.

"No, Saeyoung. You are the reason for all of this happening. I just supported you," Y/n smiles. "Congratulations."

"Congratulations, Saeyoung," Jumin says. "Good luck."

"That's amazing. Congratulations." Jaehee smiles.

"Congrats," Zen says.

"Congrats, Saeyoung," Yoosung says.

"Good job. You'll do an amazing job," Saeran smiles at me.

"Thank you," I smile at all of the RFA members. "Lets continue this RFA meeting."

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After a few more minutes of discussing the party, the meeting ended and the members left, all except Y/n and Saeran. I closed the door from letting the members leave, and I turned around to go back into the living room. Behind me, I see Saeran.

"I suggest you talk to her about your feelings. Watching you two flirt with each other and get nowhere is annoying," Saeran says before heading off in the direction of his bedroom.

I am confused about the last part of what my brother said, but I let out a sigh, knowing I should talk to Y/n. No matter how this ends, at least I told her the truth about how I really feel. I took a deep breath, trying to gain some confidence, and I walk into the living room.

As I walk into the living room, Y/n is on her phone, sitting in the same spot she was when we were having the RFA meeting.

"Y/n," I say to get her attention.

"Yeah," She says, putting her phone down and looking at me.

I walk over to her and sit down next to her. I take another deep breath.

"Y/n. You have made such a big impact on my life. I have no idea where I would be if you were never there for me," I say when suddenly I lost track of what I was going to say, so I just skip to the point. "Y/n. I always get so nervous around you, and my heart always flutters when you are around me. I have felt this way about you for a long time, but I never said anything. Now, I am."

I take a deep breath in.

"With your help, I have moved on from my relationship with MC. In that time, you made me realize I was in love with you. When I am with you, everything feels so right," I continue. "Will you go on a date with me?"

I stare into Y/n's perfect eye/color eyes, as her face turns a bright pink.

"Of course!" Y/n smiles.

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A/n: Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed!

By the way, I am really bad at coming up with names for things, like Saeyoung's new work place. Most likely, I will never write the name of the work place in this book again, so if it is horrible, you can come up with something of your own.