tf2 x reader Lemon/One Shot (Hiatus )

“I, (y/n), a strong Soldier on the battlefield, is a weak depressed neko needing love that will never come” I tell myself as I was cutting my wrists as I was in my room alone. If Soldier, my crush, saw this, he would kick me out for sure and never love me. As my cuts got deeper I started thinking what it would be like if I was dead. Death at this moment sounded like the best idea of the day. Why was today even more worse than the others? Well during battle I kept getting killed by the Blu teams Spy because I was not paying attention to where he was when I was helping others. Soldier after battle told me to go to my sleeping unit and not come out till I wrote a 3 page essay about the importance of fighting. I finished it and was gonna give it to him after I was done being down.

“COME ON MAGGOT! TIME TO TRAIN! I HOPE YOU HAVE YOUR ESSAY DONE (Y/N)!” I hear him yell outside my room. Sighing, I put away the bloody knife and I cover up my arms and, grabbing the essay, I opened the door, handed him essay and marched to the training area for hard core training to keep my mind off of today’s incident. As I was doing my normal ruiten I saw Soldier looking at me while talking to our Medic.

Medic was shaking his head and Soldier had his anger face on. I sighed knowing they were talking about me and today’s action. I could not take it anymore. I walked out the door and ran as fast as I could to the battlefield were I snuck into the Blu base, wanting to find that Spy who kept killing me so he can end my life, once and for all. If he hit my weak point I would die, never respawning again. Or maybe he could rape me and I can finally have someone to give me love.

I arrived at a door that said ‘Spy’s room’ and I knocked on the door, hoping he was in the room. The door opened and a surprised Blu Spy stood looking at me. “Hello, (y/n). Came for some more pain?”

“Yes, actually Blu Spy. I can’t take anymore emotional pain. I came here with some solutions, if I may come in to tell you them” I say not looking at him. He opened the door all the way and I walk in, and sat down on a chair. He took out a cigar and offered me one. I took it and he lit it.

“So, what are these options?” he says after a moment. I sigh and takes off my jacket, my cuts showing.

“Either you can kill me, hurt me til the point of death, or… The choice is yours. But I want you to bring either my dead/almost dead body back to my base and leave me there for them to find me.” I say with a deadpan expression. He looked me over and kisses my cheek. He took out his butterfly knife and I felt it pierce my neck as I fell into what I believe a coma. When I came too, I knew I was not dead by the sound of my heart beating and the tubes connected to my body.

“Ah, good! Your avake (y/n)” I hear a familiar german accent say nearby. I moan in pain as I sit up. The cuts on my arms were wrapped and I felt some bandages around my waist and leg. My Soldier uniform was in a neat pile and next to it was (f/f) flowers with a note. I reached over and picked up the note.

“Soldier cleaned you up after we found with Blu Spy. After you ran off Soldier realized something was wrong so he followed you to BLU’s base and well, he saw what happened. He killed the Spy after saving your butt.” I forgot about Medic. I turn and he had a warm smile on his face.

“He loves vou, vou know (y/n). It vay not look like it vight now but he does.” Medic says handing me some water. I smile a weak smile and I look at the note. It read;

“(y/n) you are very beautiful. I am so sorry for yelling at you 24/7. I don’t know how else to talk to you. Please date me and be my Soldier, Soldier” I read it over and over and I started to smile, feeling better.

“Thanks Medic. I am gonna go talk to him.” I say getting up. I realized I was super sore so Medic had to kinda help me down from the table and out the door. I nod to him thanking him and I weakly limp my way to Soldier room where I heard him grunting and saying something over and over. Not really saying, more like… moaning. I got aroused and I peeked into his room. There I saw a normally tough Soldier, taken over by lust. His hand slowly jerking his shaft. But what came outta his mouth as he finished is what made me almost yelp.

“(Y-y/n)” he called out. I slowly backed away and closed the door softly. I took a deep breath and lightly knocked on the door. I heard shuffling and the door opened.

“HELLO MAGGOT!” He says loudly. I look down and sighs. “WHAT SEEMS TO BE THE MATTER? I mean. What is wrong (y/n)”

“Do you really like me?” I ask blushing. He gulps and nods, his helmet jolting as he nods. I smile and kisses his cheek. I then grabs my waist and pulls me into him and kisses my lips deeply. I moan in the kiss and he pulls me into the room for more fun.