Let go

Ashlyn

I can see Cassia across from me being the live of the party as always. She does have some competition here though considering Hoseok may literally be her in female form. I don't think they even do it on purpose, but it's like it is their livemission to speak 24/7. Like one of her wasn't enough already now I have to deal with two. I asked Jungkook and he said sometimes he needs to detox just like me. Said it from the beginning though, they would be a powercouple. But ofcourse the bitches couldn't roll with my plans and had to be nothing more but friends.

Yoongi still can't stop admiring her, but also doesn't say much. At least not to her as he is a bit more loose tonight; making comments and adding to the extremely hyper company. Being a bit more of the softie he actually is. Tae also seems to be quite hyperactive as he fires me questions about were we live in the Netherlands and what it's like living there. It seems to be impossible for him to ever stop asking questions. Thinking about that that's probably what scares me about him because he always wants to know more and more about me. Jungkook doesn't seem to be in such rush as he is quietly sitting beside me. Compleyely relaxed, leaning back ans taking everything in around him. He can be hyper on occasions, just like me, but most of the time he doesn't mind to be in the background. I think he is a lot like me except when it comes to food. He has forced me to eat so much already and I'm just simply not a large eater. Cassia always eats half of my plate on top of the two she already had. When I tried to give some of my snacks to Jin I met with his intense stare for the first time. Let's not talk about the thoughts that shot through me, except... do you think that's what he looks like in the bedroom?

Moving on: the thing is that I don't want to disappoint him and so I obediently keep stuffing my face. I look back at Cassia who is laughing about the dumbest dad joke ever. Jin keeps laughing about his own joke and that makes it impossible not to join him. Cassia is doing great for the fact I'm sure she is freaking out inside. I know it because of the 5 updates she has already secretly whatsapped me about how Yoongi's hand lingers on her knee still. They are like freaking teenagers, they both like eachother but seem to be to scared to even say something longer then two sentences to one another. It's about time that I have a conversation with Yoongi. I mean we have met already 7 times and exactly no move has been made yet. Okay the hand but considering we are already friends for a month and a half this is going on a way too slow pace. My pace isn't going much faster though as I keep getting hit on all the time and I'm still not sure on what to do.

I'm so excited about tommorow. Jin has already called the studio and boosted about how he wanted to show his 'two new best friends around the studio.' Luckily the management agreed and we can come. Jin has picked me as his new victim and has been telling me dad jokes non stop. He is so soft and I would never dare to tell him his jokes suck. Especially because his expression makes me scream with laughter every moment. They guys have stated very clearly that they will be paying for our drinks after we informed them we couldn't go all out. You know groceries and stuff and for Cas also schoolbooks for the assignments she needs to do. 'I saw this course for photography yesterday Ash. You should follow it. We know the photographer so I'm sure I can get you in.' No matter how sweet it is, I don't want to be this pathetic. We might be poor but it doesn't mean we need charity. 'Thanks Aaron. I'll think about it.' He gives me a look and yet can't help but laugh with the others. For a long time when Namjoon said RM on videos we used to see of them we thought he said Aaron. As a result I have adopted him and named him Aaron. My precious baby haha I can't help but laugh at myself even though I'm not completely joking.

After two hours of drinking a lot more then C and I usually do I get up with my wobbly legs. Please work with me, this is no time to embarrass yourself. 'Are you okay? Don't have a high alcohol tolerance?' Everytime I start to feel relaxed I get ambushed by Tae's relentless question asking again. Now everyone is watching me, thanks dude. 'I'm sure she is fine. I'll walk with her.' Jungkook my savoir, but Tae's disappointed face doesn't escape me from the corner of my eye. Jungkook puts his arm around me as he informs me and the others. 'I need to go myself too anyways.' I can feel my neck, where his skin meets mine, burning. In a musical this would be the moment FIREEEE would randomly start playing. It doesn't feel uncomfortable though as he doesn't speak and let's me have a moment of peace and quiet. He let's go of me as we both enter the toilet. My mind is twirling with all the events tonight. I'll just ignore Taehyung from now on but that's rude so I can't. I'll just talk to Jungkook and Jin and then he won't be able to continue his investigation.

Walking outside Jungkook is already wating for me giving me a sweet smile and I walk towards him. I put my arm around him as he starts to do the same, but then decides to turn towards me. He is a little smaller then me although not by much and he steps a little closer. Our faces are close to one another and the tension one grows even more so when he whispers something. 'I really like you.' Must have misheard that. 'What?' He sniffles and jumps from one foot to another nervously. 'Are you really going to make me repeat myself?'

'I just wasn't sure I heared you correctly..'

'Well you did...'

'I like you too.' And I mean it. I like him a lot. He makes me feel really relaxed unlike Tae who makes me feel tensed all the time.

'Are you drunk?'

'Why? Not to much?' He steps even closer and puts his hand on my lower back. Pushing me against him completely. 'Because otherwise I wouldn't do this right now.' That's when he kisses me and I'm sure fire should play right now. His lips are soft and he kisses me sweetly, but as I lean in to awnser him something changes. Eyes closed and yet he manages to turn me around and pushes me against the wall and I'm on fire. I can feel him restraining himself as I can sense his hands hovering beside my hips. Wanting to touch me, but also wanting to wait. His hands end up in my hair as the kissing intensifies. Passionately he grabs the sides of my face as he pulls away. No. To soon and so I pull him back by his shirt resulting in a grin on his mouth before he obliges. We stand there untill someone passes us and brings us back to reality. We are out.. in public. He takes a step back.

'So I like you and you like me..'

'That sounds about right.' As I return his smile. He is so adorable right now and some of me never wants to leave this place untill I realise we are in the bathroom hallway. Then I think of how I need to talk to Cassia about what just happened. He grabs my hands and looks me in the eye. 'So why not be together?' Wait what... I'm absolutely stunned as I did not expect this. 'Yeah why not.' I hear myself awnsering and he hugs me. It feels so good as a warm feeling of happiness comes over me.

Yet I cannot understand that when the words came out of my mouth Tae's disappointed face came up in my mind. Combined with a load of guilt. Trying to shake it off as he releases me and we walk back towards the others.