Reincarnated as an Alchemist - If i have no cheat then, i just have to make one

It's dark. Everything was pitch black, I didn't know whether I was conscious or not. It was as if I was floating inside nothingness.

"Is this the end for me?"

I muttered. I was aware that nobody would answer this question. I sighed.

"I wonder if everyone is safe. Does Lily managed to arrive in her mother's embrace?"

I talked with myself.

The time is short yet felt so long in here. Perhaps when the seal was broken, everything is already changed. How many years would that be? Will I still able to see Alicia, Lily, and everyone again?

I felt the loneliness of being inside this place. Did that Superbia Demon Lord also feel this kind of loneliness when he's sealed? My heart trembled. This was the first time I felt sympathizing a fellow demon lord of mine.

I wish I will still able to see Alicia and Lily when I was out from this dark space. Just imagining waking up in the world without them already made me so sad, anxious and scared.

Maybe I'll try to sleep for now.

I closed my eyes. I surrendered my consciousness into a deep slumber.

As I fell deeper and deeper into my slumber, I started recalling my times of living as Kazuma, my previous life. I suddenly missed that world too.

"Kaoru"

I called a single name belong to someone who was close to me in that time. I started recalling every moments I had spent with her. I had known her since we were born and we grew together for 23 years till my silly death.

Ah, I kind of feel homesick toward the old world of mine. The sweet memories of my childhood flashed inside my head and it was displayed like a movie.

My birth, my first meeting with Kaoru, and also the memorable memories we had during our childhood were displayed one after another. I giggled when I recalled my mischief. Everything displayed in front of me was the flashback memories which were displayed in rather fast motion.

The childhood moment changed to the beginning of my school life. The innocent little boy started to grow up into a mischievous brat. I saw the child version of myself was introduced to the world by the teachers through the lessons.

"That time feels so nostalgic, I wonder if my old gangs are doing over there. Though, they must have forgotten about me."

I muttered. The scenes after scenes came to my view. My elementary school life ended and I entered the world of middle school life, the peak of my dark history.

Yes, I was one of those who caught the most embarrassing disease, the eight-grade syndrome. At that time I was hooked up by a real fantasy anime and joined the manga research club for no reason. I and my fellow club members were similarly sick and had done various stupid things that nobody would want to do normally.

I somehow had an urge to jump out from the window and erase the memory of that time forever.

I wish I could turn back time and change that behavior of mine into a decent one.

I thought as I sighed.

[Was it really a best choice to change that?]

I heard a strange voice inside my head. I turned around and saw my middle-school version of me in his chuuni-attire. Black cape over the unbuttoned gakuran, the black sailor cap with V-shaped cut on the front, tattered old-styled black leather shoes, and fingerless gloves with runic pattern sewed on the back were my usual attire during the time I attended the club.