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Negan
Throughout the duration that I had Ophi here, she never seemed happy. I don't blame her, who could? She wasn't going to be able to make herself happy by being sad everyday, so she always made others happy. I don't know how she could always bring people to a certain mood like happiness, but she always did. Which always made me feel like I ruined her. I ruined her innocence; her perfect, beautiful soul...with my ragged, no good presence. God, I loved her so much. I'm not enough for her, she deserved so much more than what she had.
"Negan, baby..." I looked down to see Ophi, tracing my chest with her gentle touch.
"G'morning Oph," I smiled, kissing her on her head. I felt her hand fall into my thigh.
"What are you plans for today?" She asked, while giving me little kisses on my bare chest, I always loved when she did that.
"We actually don't have anything to do today, why?" I questioned, while running one hand through her hair.
"Can we please do something today? We don't even have to leave, we can stay in the room. Please baby, I need you." She pleaded, while getting up and straddling me, slightly pushing herself onto my crotch.
"Mhm, fuck well when you do that... I don't know if I can resist." I kissed her lips, I didn't want to fuck. I wanted to keep her in bed with me all day, and talk about everything. I never gave her the time she needed.
"Take me baby please." She begged, while grinding her hips into mine, whimpering and closing her eyes. I couldn't explain how much I wanted to take her and ruin her tight, pretty, little pussy; to ruin our headboards from fucking her so hard, so hard she couldn't walk. But we were falling apart, and I couldn't live with myself if I let her go.
"Later, tonight. I'll do whatever you want, love." I kissed her lips, and she nodded while reluctantly lying back down beside me. I looked at her and pushed some of her hair out of her face.
"Negan, what's wrong?" Nothing was wrong.
"I'm so in love with you, I don't know what I could do without you. I've put you through so much yet you still love me." I placed my hand on her chest, playing with her necklace she had on. She'd told me it was given to her by Rick, I knew she would never forgive me for forcing her to take it off. She loved him.
"I don't know why I've done the things I've done. I can't make the excuse just I do it for youc, it's a bitch excuse. I will never hurt you like that ever again."
"I love you so much Negan, I just need time to get over the things you've done. From Glenn, and Abraham. You tore my group apart." I watched as she let tears fall down her cheeks.
"And then you made me...I don't know if I can ever forgive you for that. That group is my home. I've been with them since this all started. You can't pull me apart from them and expect me to forget them." I sighed, she was right. I was the shittiest human being on this planet. I don't know why she continues to put up with my shit. She is the epitome of a woman. A woman who has been through it all, the brutalities of the world. She is a survivor, of everything. I took advantage of her and never realized what the fuck she'd been through.