Complicated {s.c x reader}

5

"I promise, Y/N. I won't tell anybody else. I swear." Thea says, touching my hand.

"I...I-I still have feelings for Sam." I say, a feeling of relief and more frustration bubbling up my stomach.

"Y/N..." She whispers.

"I know, Thea. I know what you're going to say. I know you're about to say that It's just because I saw him today. I know you're about to say that he's married and is expecting a child and I should NOT be having these feelings. I know you're about to say to move on because he DOESN'T LOVE ME. I know he doesn't love me. If he really loved me I wouldn't be alone right now. It's just...all these feelings are piling up on me and I can't handle it." I end up shouting, getting up from the couch and pacing my living room.

"Y/N, just.."

"I know..I know. I know you're going to tell me that it's just because I've been single for so long." I say, rubbing my head.

"Y/N, just calm down." she says, "I know what you're going through, okay? I know that you're hurting more than ever right now. That's okay sometimes."

I sit back on the couch, my chest hurting with every inhale, and my heart becoming heavier every time I think about him.

"I know you, Y/N. I know you aren't over him. It's going to take a long time, and it's going to be painful, but you will move on." She says to me.

"But, what if I can't?" I say, wiping away a stray tear.

"You can."

Silence fills the room.

"I'm being so selfish." I say, my head resting in my hands. The scent of my shampoo still lingers in my half-dried hair.

"You're not being selfish. Your heart and your mind are conflicted right now." She says, rubbing my back.

"I want to get over him, Thea! I do! I just...I can't." I say, a sob escaping at the end of my sentence.

"Y/N, listen to me. I've met so many amazing people. Brilliant actors, writers, directors, but you are one of the most intelligent, kind-hearted, sweet, and strong women I know. You've gone through so much pain to get to this point, and I won't allow you to be upset over him. Because, Y/N, you are so much better than this. I know you can power through this, and I know you will." She says, wiping a tear from my cheek.

I wrap my arms around her into a hug.

She's right. I can and will do this. I won't allow my feelings to get in the way of a relationship. Sam is about to have a family and I won't allow myself to get in their way.

"Thank you, Thea." I say, smiling.

"No problem, love. Did the ice cream help?" She laughs.

"Always." I say, wiping my face from the tears that escaped my eyes.

"I'm glad. Well, I better be off. I'll see you soon." She smiles.

"Thank you again. I'll see you." I walk her to the door and close it behind her.

Alright Y/N, it's time to put yourself back together.

I check the clock on my wall, reading 7:13 PM. I decide that now is time to put my life back in order, and my heart...I guess.

I start by unpacking every box I could manage, finally settling into my new home. All my pots, pans, silverware, etc. Every t-shirt, dress, and article of clothing I would tell myself I'd unpack soon, I put away. I then picked up my phone, seeing the notifications flood. I delete all my social media apps temporarily, and only save the important ones.

I got several text messages from my family and friends.

Are you okay, Y/N?

I saw what happened, what's going on w/ you and Sam?

Y/N ANSWER WHAT'S HAPPENING?!

Do you need to talk?

OMG Y/NNNNN!

Call me when you have a sec.

Are you okay, girl?

I answer the one's from my family and best friends. I tell them I'm okay, I just saw Sam again and everything's fine. I lied a little bit, because everything was NOT okay two hours ago...

But everything will be okay, I just need to breathe and chillax.

I lay down in my bed after locking my doors and turning everything off for the night.

It's okay, Y/N. Everything will be okay.

Time Skip: (two weeks later)

"Thea, can we take one more coffee break?" I say, resting my head in my arms. We're trying to put together the cast list. Cutting actors from their dream roles is heart-breaking. Several papers, resumes, and headshots are sprawled out on the ground in front of me, Adam, and Thea.

"No more coffee breaks! We've already taken three in the past couple hours." She says, chuckling.

"Alright. We've gotten the actors for William Traynor narrowed down to five." I say, sitting up straight to look at the five potential actors for what seemed to be the millionth time.

I stare at the five headshots. All very attractive men and amazing actors, but one clearly stood out, and not just because I was madly in love with him.

Sam. It's him, he's William! There's no doubt.

I stare at his picture, thinking of the pure emotion and talent he has to play this part.

"I think we all know who should play William." Adam says, running his hand through his brown hair.

"Sam." We all say at the same time, which makes us burst out laughing.

"I think we've come to an agreement then." They says, taking the other four headshots out of our view, leaving just Sam's.

"I want to let you both know that I'm not casting Sam because he's my ex. We're done, and that's that." I say, taking a deep breath.

"Great, Y/N. I'm glad you said that." Thea says, smiling. Adam agrees and we move on from their, making sure the other potential actors get significant roles in the movie. We then move on to deciding who will play Louisa Clarke.

We lay out the narrowed down actresses, which was reduced down to three.

"I just don't see her as Louisa. She's got real talent, but she doesn't have the quirk we're looking for." I say, looking at headshot of a blonde girl.

"I agree. We should give her a supporting role, though." Adam says as we agree.

I look at the two headshots laid in front of us. Like I expected, Emilia Clarke's headshot was there. She is one of the best actresses I've met before, and she nailed the audition. Her and Sam would work fantastically together.

"I think Sarah should get another main role. She has a more mature aspect to her acting." Thea says, picking up the adjacent headshot.

"Agreed. I think we know the best actress possible for Louisa." I say, smiling at Emilia's picture.

I can't wait to see how this movie turns out.