The Diary of Existing

TWENTY ONE

"So, you and Henry? Wow, I hear good things about Henry." Hannah said and this day was getting more confusing.

"What are you talking about?" I asked and they all laughed at how clueless I seemed. Was I missing something?

"Come on Alex. Henry's a handsome guy. If you like him tell us, we're your friends. Is something going on between you guys? How did you even meet him?" Bailey asked and I couldn't blame these girls for thinking that something might be going on between me and Henry. Especially since I gave him a tour of the house. Which to them they probably thought I was making out or having sex with him in another room, when in reality it was him keeping me away from world war three.

"We met a couple of nights ago. Apparently he's known me longer. We're connected for short, not family. But I don't have any interest in Henry. He's handsome but, I'm not looking so let's settle it there. I don't want to talk about this anymore." I said, straightforward.

My seriousness caught them off guard. Their smiles faded and it just felt awkward now. Because of me. God, I'm so stupid. I came off too serious and now they just feel awkward. They were just being typical teenagers like me, thinking about boys and the like. I was thinking too much about Morgan, her dad and Henry's shock over the information he had discovered. I haven't processed the fact that Ingrid doesn't seem to care as well.

"I'm sorry. I just don't like being linked like that." I said and the girls smiled. They all laughed at me and said they understood, but they wished that me and Henry did become a thing because apparently we were a good match.

I don't see it.

We walked back in and I continued to talk to the girls. They kept me distracted by telling me which one of my mother's guests was a pervert so far. Jacqueline was trying to drive the conversation elsewhere, not wanting anyone to accidentally hear them. Meanwhile, I had my eyes exploring the entire room. Surveying to see where Morgan was. I was finally able to spot her, she was by the stairs with Angel, having a conversation.

Thank God.

I didn't know where Henry was though. I wanted to make sure he wasn't making a wrong move. I tried to be as clear as I could with him but I don't know if I had convinced him otherwise. I know, it was wrong for my attempt at stopping him from reporting an incident like this to the authorities. I would have done it, but I knew that it was useless. Morgan's dad was an important person. Very important. And that meant a lot, especially when money talks. But that didn't mean I was going to just leave it at that. This just makes me want to be there more for Morgan.

"Alex..." I heard Jacqueline's soft voice. She looked at me concerned. She mouths are you okay at me and I wasn't able to reply.

"Hey, I'm going to do a touch up and I'm taking Alex with me." Jacqueline said, Hannah and Bailey were deep in a conversation and simply waved at us. Jacqueline pulled me away, I was hesitant because I didn't want to lose sight of Morgan. But she pulled me into the bathroom anyway.

"I know you aren't okay, so what's going on? Is it Morgan?" Jacqueline said and I was feeling a bit annoyed now.

"No." I said firmly.

"I can't believe she is here, but she is. That's why me and my girls are here, to distract you from people like them. I know that she can be uncomfortable to be with but-"

"Shut up!" I cut her off. It was annoying that she was once again shedding a bad light on Morgan. I was already tense, and it wasn't helping that she was standing there, assuming what was wrong with me or what was bothering me, as if she had known me long enough.

"Stop assuming that everything is about Morgan, okay? It isn't. If anything, I am glad she's here, just not with her parents. I don't even want to be here. I was supposed to be spending this day with her, Angel and Henry at the movies. I tried to salvage this day but instead here I am, not having the time of my life. Just let me be." I said and walked out of the bathroom. I know that I shouldn't have yelled at Jacqueline, and she had just started to bring up Morgan and I knew where it was leading.