The Diary of Existing

FORTY

"I don't like Henry the way he likes me." I confirmed and she just chuckled.

"That's not going to stop my son from pursuing you. And telling the world he likes you. But I don't. I know you, and your family. Your father aside, your mother is a disgusting excuse of a woman." Celina said, and I wasn't sure if she was trying to insult me because I totally agreed with her.

"I don't like my mother. And believe me when I say that no one agrees with you more than me." I said and she just rolled her eyes.

"Your mother was... Is, a snake. She tried to flirt with my ex-husband when we were still together and while she was still with your father. Legally. She then proceeded to confirm with one of her friends that apparently, the reason for the dissolution of my marriage with my husband was because I wasn't pleasing him in bed. She goes on to comment that she could do better, and she said this to my friends. The same friends I work with on a daily basis. When I confronted your mother she just laughed at my face. She's a complete snake. She'll do whatever she can to be the center of attention." Celina said and I was honestly not surprised at her little revelation.

It definitely sounded like my mother.

"You remind me of her." Celina said and I knew that was an insult.

"I'm nothing like my mother." I said, an angry tone on my voice and I saw the change in her face. She was shocked to hear that tone.

"I know Wesley likes you. And my son likes you. You're a smart girl. You'd know when two boys like you. Stay away from my son." Celina said.

"I'm not interested in Henry in that way. And I'm nothing like my mother. How dare you say that to me. You don't know me." I said, now I was just angry and I wasn't going to back down.

"I know your mother." She said and I was beginning to feel completely pissed.

"I'm not my fucking mother!" I yelled and she towered over me as soon as I said that. I saw her hand twitch, she wanted to slap me.

"You want to slap me? Go ahead. No one's looking." I said and Celina bit her lower lip.

"I'm a classier woman than you think. I wouldn't slap a child." Celina quipped, and I was still feeling angry.

"Stay away from my son." Celina said and walked off. I wanted to follow her and continue the conversation but she was in a sea of strangers that I didn't know. And it was still Henry's birthday.

I was just too exhausted to even push the conversation any further and try to fight for myself. So instead, I decided to just walk away. I headed for the door and as soon as I was stepping out I hear someone call my name. I ignore it but it wasn't until someone pulled my arm that I turned to see Wesley.

"Alex, where are you going?" Wesley asked, concerned.

"Queen Mary's. Tell Henry I'm sorry but I had to go." I said and was back to walk off but Wesley held onto my arm.

"I heard." He said and I felt the pit on my stomach just explode.

He heard the conversation?

"Aunt Celina is a bit choosey with who her son should be friends with. It's a miracle she thinks Morgan and Angel are decent friends for Henry." Wesley said.

Friends? What conversation did he even hear?

"But, I needed to tell you something." Wesley said and I turned, unsure of what he wanted to tell me.

"Did you hear the whole conversation?" I asked.

"She kept saying to stay away from Henry." Wesley said and I was beginning to assume that he didn't really hear the entire conversation. Which at this point, was a good thing.

"Listen. I've been wanting to tell you something." Wesley began and he turned me around, one hand now holding mine.

What was going?

"I was supposed to tell you this when we went to Snowshill but it seemed so forward. I asked Morgan about it and she told me I should just tell you upfront." Wesley said. Morgan? What the fuck was going on?

"What is it Wesley? I'm getting tired of this whole make Alex confused thing." I said and he gave me a confused look, he didn't understand what I was saying. I honestly didn't understand what I was saying either. I sighed and pulled my hand away.

"What is it Wesley?" I asked and he breathed in heavily.

"I like you Alex." Wesley said and I wasn't shocked at all. Mainly because Henry had already told me, and earlier Celina was telling me the same thing. Not directly but she did imply it. And it was kind of obvious, especially after that little impromptu date at Showshill.

"Why?" I asked him and Wesley looked like he was caught off guard. Probably not expecting me to ask that, but he should have, I mean, who wouldn't wonder why someone liked them. Or was that just me?

"It's hard to explain." Wesley said, and he was looking completely nervous. I sighed, and I did want to apologize to him for making him feel jealous or possibly hurting him with how close me and Henry were the entire night. So I just gave him a smile and a nod. But I knew I didn't like him that way, but I couldn't tell him that and crush him completely.

"You probably don't see me the same way I see you." Wesley said and I just gave him a small smile, thankful that he was aware.

"But I was hoping you'd give me a chance?" Wesley asked and I wasn't sure what he meant by that.

"It's old fashioned but I think it's appropriate especially since we don't know each other that well. But would you let me court you?" Wesley said. Court me?

"Court me? Like, court court me?" I tried to clarify and he laughed at what I said. I wasn't used to a boy confessing to me, and neither was I used to being courted for that matter. I've never even interacted with a boy as much as I have with Wesley and Henry.

"Yeah, give me the chance to prove myself. And maybe somewhere you'll end up liking me and finally let me take it a step further from courtship." Wesley said and I had to admit that this was the weirdest conversation I've ever been in.

But thinking about it, I didn't see anything wrong if Wesley was to court me. It wasn't like it meant I was his girlfriend and he was my boyfriend. It was just... Courting... Right?

"Okay." I said and Wesley's eyes lit up.

"Really?" Wesley asked and I nodded my head.

It wasn't a big deal... Right?