The Diary of Existing

FIFTY FOUR

I didn't even know what to say to him. And so I said nothing, and just sat there in silence with him. He was still trying to put a grip on me, but I had placed a small gap between us, trying to pull away but he wouldn't budge off.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I just thought you didn't need to know something so negative. Because she acted so friendly towards you." I could hear the guilt in his voice. He felt extremely apologetic for not letting me know I had an enemy in Morgan. But I wanted to know more about what he knew.

"So you knew? Did she tell you? What did she tell you?" I started interrogating, as if I was a girlfriend who had just discovered her boyfriend cheated on her. I stared at him, waiting for a response but he wouldn't give one.

"Henry, please." I pleaded, he looked at me this time and I was hoping he'd feel bad for me and tell me. I was trying to work up the infamous puppy eyes on him, I've never done it before and I didn't know if it even worked.

But when he opened his mouth, I guess there was the evidence to it working.

"She just told me earlier this morning. She called, said she knew that I was courting you and that I should feel bad because Wesley's my best friend and I was doing this behind his back. Then she kept telling me how she felt like you were some kind of snake, getting in between me and Wes, but I told her it was my fault. I kind of initiated the whole secret thing, and I was too much of a moron to not have asked you first and allow it to get this far." Henry explained.

I wasn't buying that bullshit for a second.

I pulled away, got up and began to walk away.

"Where are you going?" I heard him call out, and I could also hear him struggled to get up from where he was sitting. I was reaching the steps when he grabbed me by my wrist and tried to spin me around, but I resisted and pulled my arm away.

"Stop following me." I said and he tried to grab a hold again but I just kept pulling.

"I'm not going to sit here and let you lie to me like that. I know what you said is full of shit. I'd expect to you to be honest with me." I yelled at him and he just stood there, like a frightened rabbit.

"I'm sorry." He was quick to apologize but I just rolled my eyes at him.

"I don't understand why you're even lying to me about what she said. You can tell me, I literally just told you that she hates me, what could be worse than that?" I said and Henry swallowed a lump on his throat, his hand to his sides as he lets go of my wrist, no longer attempting to stop me.

But I stood there anyway, suspicious.

"Tell me Henry. Tell me now." I said demanding for answers. But he just stood there, scratching the back of his head like a guilty man. Like he had cheated on me or something.

What was it? Did they use to date? Did he sleep with her? Did he get her pregnant? What the fuck is he trying to hide from me. He obviously knows why Morgan doesn't like me, but I needed to know why or what he knew about it.

"Stop wasting my time." I said as I walked up the steps.

I didn't need another person lying to me. And to have Henry be that person just hurt me even more. I pulled out my phone as I was crossing towards the gate, I entered as I began to furiously type through my phone and hit send.

Wes, meet me at the bench ASAP.

I walked all the way from the gate towards the bench at the back. My legs didn't even feel tired from the long walk, because I was too busy feeling hurt, disappointed and overall mad at Henry. I didn't understand why I was this mad at me. Maybe he wasn't telling me what he knew in order to protect me, because he didn't want to hurt me.