The Nerd And The Bad Boy

COLTEN

"I'm sorry," I murmured to Ali's mum, "I didnt know what was going to happen."

"Because of you, she's in the hospital," her mum glared at me, Gram was sitting in the chair near us. Completely unaware of our conversation. You could tell she blamed herself for what had happened.

I starred at her for a second before looking away, "Just let me say goodbye, alright? Then I'm gone, I swear. I'm no good for her anyway."

She nodded, but whether it was an agreement or something, but I went into the room and felt my demenor crumble. I would seriously miss her, because I truly do love her.

Her pale face was surrounded by her dark brown hair, I sat in the chair next to her bed and reached out for her hand. She didnt wake, but I knew that I'd have to leave, otherwise she'd end up dead. This would never end. She'd be safe if I left, if Zack believed I didnt care.

"I'm sorry, Alice," I bowed my head, "I'm sorry I said those things. Maybe one day we'll meet up and continue where we left off."

I stopped, ony because I felt like I couldnt breath. Here I was, saying goodbye to the person I cared most about. Leaving her in her time of need, when she'd need someone to lean on more then ever. Without hesiation, I put a note on the table next to her and wrote her name neatly on it.

"I love you, always, forever," I leaned down to kiss her forehead. She didnt stir, or even bat an eye. I stood, just looking at her, trying to memorize every feature. There were going to be a lot of sleepless nights ahead of me. I reached in my pocket and pulled out a picture, it was of Ali and I before we went to the dance. Before everything happened.

Putting away the picture I kept my head down and turned to leave.

"Colt..." a weak voice murmured, sounding completely broken. I froze, not turning, "Colten, why'd...why'd you say those things?"

I finally turned to her, running my hands through my hair, "I didn't mean a single one of them, Ali, I promise."

She didn't make a sound, as if waiting for me to continue.

I glanced up, meeting her broken down but hopeful eyes, "I still love you, but I have to go. I cant live with myself if something bad happens again. Zack's still out there, but as long as I'm not here you'll be safe."

She shook her head, "I'm only safe around you, everything happens when you're not there, Colt, dont leave."

Ali stood, with difficulty, I walked towards her. She would have difficulty walking with a hole in her side. I steadied her, "You should lay down, it's not good to be up and around yet."

Without hesitation, she wrapped her arms around me and buried her face in my chest, "Dont leave me."

Knowing I was already going to regret leaving, I enveloped her in my arms, trying not to cry. That would be dumb. No what was dumb was that I was leaving her.

"I love you," I said as softly as I could, hoping that she wouldn't hear, but I couldn't help myself. I did and I wanted her to know it, that this was to protect her, but that I'd always be there. Not physically, but mentally.

"If you really love me, dont leave me," she insisted, hugging me tighter.

"I'm doing this to protect you," I pulled away, resisting the urge to kiss her forehead as I walked out with a heavy heart, closing the door behind me, "Let's go, Gram."

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Ali

I stood there, just starring at the door. I could practically hear my heart breaking, my eyes watered and a sob escaped me. I ripped the IV from my arm and took a step towards the door, my side screaming. I let out a gasp of pain, hearing the machines go insane. I fought back at the pain, taking another step. I caught my breath and took another step. Then another. Before falling down onto my knees, I could hear the nurses running to my door, throwing it open. I was being picked up my two people. Two nurses to be exact.

They laid me back on my bed and started asking me questions as they hooked me up to the IV. I didn't hear any of the questions though, and I didn't answer them as I closed my eyes and started crying. Balling actually, the pain in my side decreased as they gave me a shot, but the shot did nothing to take the pain from my heart.

 When the nurses left, I noticed a small piece of notebook paper sitting on the nightstand. My name was printed neatly on it. I grabbed it, moving slowly, as if it would shatter just like my heart. It didn't shatter and I recognized Colt's handwritting right away. I opened it, but then thought better of it and pushed away my curiousity, closing it immediatly. My curiousity killed the best relationship I had.

I closed my eyes again, hearing the door open, but not caring to open my eyes.

"Ali," Chloe's voice rang out, her footsteps got closer, "Wake up."

I opened my eyes, "I'm not sleeping, not anymore. I never will, ever again."

She hugged me, well tried to, "It'll be okay, I promise it will be. He's just stupid, and he's lucky I dont whoop his no good ass."

"Chloe, stop," a couple tears leaked out of my eyes, "I love him, so just be nice."

She motioned for me to scoot over, which I did the best I could, before she laid down beside me, pulling me into her arms and just holding me, "It's going to be alright, okay? He'll come back eventually, and then I'll kick some ass, then you can live happily ever after."

I sobbed out a laugh, but cried into her shoulder, I hugged her. So we just laid there, in each other's arms just like the old days, back when I'd be the one comforting her after her major break ups. Except this time, it was my break up.

I buried my head in her shoulder, inhaling her familiar smell of lilacs and outdoors, and fell asleep. Just like that, it was only us. Just the way it had always been. I had no one but Chloe again, and maybe just maybe my mum. This would never be enough now.

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A/N

Not as long as the last chapter, I know, but its a very important filler. The next chapter, Ali will be home and getting ready for trial, then there may or may not be another chapter depending on how I'm feeling about this. I'm seriously crying at my own ending and I haven't even proof read it. I hope you guys like this:), I'm sorry if the next chapter is boring. I'm seriously sorry it it sucks, but I like it. Happy almost New Year! Vote, Comment, Follow.

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