Skybound [ MCSM Lukas x Reader ]

Trauma.

The result after going through a particularly stressful experience, which often is a life-changing moment. Trauma itself is often associated with negative side effects, such as feelings of helplessness, feelings of unease, generally increased hesitation, feelings of anxiety, fear, guilt, and even more. The thing about trauma is that in this situation, it can't be simply fixed by a health potion. Instead, the trauma itself is more internal rather than external. This essentially means that there isn't an option to avoid the effects of this experience, as it's now created it's own little psychological stress-filled hole in part of your memories.

However, although there are many bad things that come from experiencing trauma, it's not entirely terrible. In fact, trauma can help a person grow. It gives you a changing point which can allow you to learn more about what happened, create new understandings and new connections you never thought possible, and in some cases can perhaps be the stepping stone you need to reach the next chapter in you're life. It hopefully shouldn't be a goal to experience trauma in any form, however, if you do experience it, it's important to understand that there can be good in the bad. Because at the end of the day, you have two choices. 

You can either give in to the fear of the experience.

Or you can take that second chance. 

CHAPTER 14. FUZZY MEMORIES

> Lukas' POV

Between what happened when Petra and [Y/N] got those things on their heads to now, there hasn't really been a chance to take much of a breather. The only time that could be used to at least calm down a bit was the walk through the caves. Unfortunately, that also seemed short-lived. Honestly, even then I kept feeling worried about them. I knew that they were strong and weren't exactly in any physical danger, at least I hoped, but it didn't shake the bad feeling I had. The sooner those things get off their heads, the better.

To say I was reluctant to even fight them was an understatement. To say I was relieved when [Y/N]'s redstone thing was shocked off was an understatement. To say I was still concerned given Petra was still being controlled, and Harper was being taken away was again, an understatement. Although we would be safe for now, it never feels like a guarantee. 

Then again, when has it ever?

Once we were inside the room I sat [Y/N] down considering it probably would be less dizzy, before Ivor spoke up. " Harper and Petra...? " Compared to the usual snarky tone he had, it was different this time. The tone of his voice had a heaviness to it, but there wasn't much else to be said. We all knew there wasn't much we could do, at least not now. 

" Wait... they... oh no... " [Y/N] muttered, before rubbing the back of their head, which probably was still sore from the literal shock. In a slightly strained voice, they spoke up. " Uh... Everything is sort of fuzzy right now... and it kind of hurts to think words? But I think I remember something that might be helpful... at least with taking care of cyber jerk. It was these three pillar things with weird glowy things, I think it was something red? My headaches when I think so I can't exactly remember much... but whatever it was, it's important to PAMA. " They looked up at everyone and continued to keep a hand on the back of their head. " That's all I've got for now... I'd remember more but like my head when I was 'taken over' or something... it feels like my heads going to explode. Literally, mind blown. " 

They seemed to start muttering some things under their breath, I couldn't exactly hear it but it seemed to just be them trying to process what happened. Jesse let out a slight sigh and gave a small smile. " Just take it easy for a minute. After what you went through you could probably use some rest," they mentioned, getting a slight dazed nod in response before [Y/N] stood back up. " Okay- we may be down but we're not out; Harper told us to find her... headset thing... We just have to find whatever-it-is before PAMA chips Harper... and starts downloading her mind. " Jesse started up, starting to walk.