I smile at Papyrus as he opened the back door from the front seat of his car. I still can't believe he offered to take me home even when he has no clue where it is at...
"Now, y/n... Is it...?" He seemed to be hesitating to say something...
"Is it alright if we drive around a bit? I need to talk to you... it's about Sans." Well, that surprised me, to say the least.
Sans? I don't know much about sans... why would his brother of all people want to talk to ME about HIM?
"U-Uhm... alright?" I sit down in the back seat, and next to me is sans' jacket... but, he isn't in the car at all? I shake my head before I drift away in thought... I seem to be doing that much more often than I'd like. After buckling up, I shut the car door. The windows all around the car were tinted, even the drivers, except a little sliver in the back, and I'm assuming for the front-view window, and the windshield.
The locks suddenly went off and I jumped a bit at them. I didn't expect them to go off... or did Papyrus do that?-
"A-Ah!! Sorry y/n... It's such a habit..." There was a pause in his sentence before he did anything. It looked like he was... a bit sad?
Suddenly, the car started up and we slowly drove out of the parking lot, but as soon as we were on the road, it seemed like he sped up a lot. I tried to glance at a speed-limit sign but the windows were far too tinted, and it was much too dark to see them. I just assumed he knew what the limit was.
"So uh... Sans, right? I don't uh- know much about Sans. I don't know why you'd ask me about him hehe... But, everything IS alright with him... right???" I ask, I was a little bit impatient about this subject for a reason. I wanted to know what was wrong with him... I wanted to know if he needed help, If he needed my help...
"Oh Sans is... doing fine. But, do you, I-I don't know how to word this without being weird but, do you have frequent dreams of fields?" I notice that his soft, bouncy personality is gone. I tried to look at his face to see any emotion... Sadness and a bit of happiness was on his features... Oh boy what did that skeleton do now? I just met him but, I feel like I already know him... I feel like I'm so close to him too... isn't that rather weird? Wait- F-Fields???? Those fields???????
I brought myself to a steady composure, deep breaths..., I couldn't believe he knew about those. Can skeletons read minds or something?!?! "Uhm, yeah! It's actually been the only dream I've had for years... How do you know about that, Papyrus???" I wanted answers, and I wanted them now. I feel... upset that he knows about something so personal.
"Well, Sans recently has been having some..... dreams. Dreams of fields, and of a human... a human named y/n. And, we're assuming it's you."
Ohmygod. My face erupts in blush. That field is my special place, my place to get away. MY place to be happy... and they know about it?!?!? Sans has been there before?!?!? Wait... was he that... blob? Oh.... Oh no... Why didn't I see it before? Oh my fucking god... The car stayed in silence for a few minutes.
"B-But Sans didn't go and tell everyone about it!!! To his information, o-only Toriel knows... One night, he woke up in a rather good mood... and told toriel about his dream. I'm assuming Frisk overheard it and told everyone about it. I only got a few pieces of information but, it seems like you gave him some great advice in his dream. Ever since then i've notice he's been... trying more often. Just, maybe little things like picking up his socks, something he never does or- or doing the dishes?!? Which I was amazed to see him do! I'm rather proud of him. And then he went and got a job???? Sans? A JOB?!? I-I was so happy but... this isn't like him. I think... He's forcing himself. He's forcing himself to be apart of human society. I don't like it. I don't like it one bit. I'm worried. Because knowing him, he'll work himself to death. We may say he's lazy but, I-I've just.... never seen him like this. Not since we've been children that is-..." He took a pause. He pulled over to the side of the road. No one was driving on the street so he didn't turn on any signal or anything. It was rather sudden. Quiet sobs could be heard from his direction, "I-I don't know if I should be happy, or worry about him?... I want him to try but, not too hard. I think if he just made a friend, and let the friend into his life... then he'll be happy. And he wouldn't try to hard. I know he has those... 'Friends' but... they aren't that close to him at all. And then there's the latter of me just over-worrying all of this. But... What do you think, human y/n?"
Man, all these monsters have so much going on in their lives... They all probably need a shoulder to lean on.
"Well, it's normal to worry about people you care about, Papyrus. I don't think you're overthinking it at all. But, maybe you could slowly turn Sans into the right direction? I don't think I'm the correct person to ask about this... Lady Toriel seems to know more about Sans than I do. Maybe start there?..." I give him a bright smile, as a way of reassurance. All he could do was sob and smile.
"T-Thank you, y/n. Thank you so much..." Papyrus was apparently way taller than I thought because he stretched from the front seat and wrapped his arms around me. I wrapped my arms around him in turn. I could hear sniffles from him. He seems to only let his tears out when I'm not looking... Gah.... What am I going to do with these skeletons....
The rest of the night went smoothly. We were a bit away from my house so we played a bit of music on the radio and sung our hearts out into the night. Papyrus has surprisingly nice vocals. But, sooner than I realized, I was finally home.
"Well it was a great night. I'm glad I met you, papyrus!" I unbuckle my seat and get out of the car, but stop myself before I set foot out of it. "O-Oh wait!! Where's Sans even at???" I forgot to ask that towards the beginning of our car-ride...
"My brother? Well, he went home with Toriel and Frisk! I explained to Toriel how I wanted to talk to you in private. I hope he didn't mind though...." He let out a little giggle.
"Oh! I'm sure he won't mind but..." I grab onto his jacket that was in the back-seat, "Maybe don't forget about his jacket when you go and pick him up?" I laugh.
"Oh Asgore! You're right... I totally forgot about it. Thank you, y/n. And good night." After mentioning sans' jacket, Papyrus seemed like he was in a rush. I decided to not keep him here any longer.
"You're welcome, and good night..." I get up from the car and shut the door. As I walk away on the side-walk, Papyrus immediately sped away. I giggled a bit at his antics.
As soon as I couldn't see his car anymore, I pulled out my keys from my pocket and headed towards my apartment complex. Ahh wow. Home sweet home... I should probably get my car from work tomorrow...Opening the doors, I didn't even bother saying hello to the apartment manager.. I just wanted to go to bed... Looking over to the elevator I notice it is in use.. Oh you have got to be kidding me... Y'know what... I'll just wait...
After a few minutes, it came back down and opened. I hurriedly rushed into the elevator and sighed, hitting the button to my floor.
"Well, well, well... If it isn't lady y/n." Oh god. I know that voice.
"I already paid rent. Please leave me alone." I sigh again.
"W-Well, Y/n... If you want... You could come over to my place?~ I got a beau-" I cut him off by smacking him in the face.
"If you continue to say shit like that, I'll just kick you like a soccer ball. You know I could do that, and I would GLADLY do it."...
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Finally, my stop. I get out onto my floor and make my way to my door. I make sure that little goblin isn't following me... and he isn't! Great!!!
I finally find my door and fumble with my keys a bit before I eventually unlock it. Wooo I'm home. Lemme take of this stupid dres... and................ Plop mmm warm.... comfy bed... ZzzzZzzz....
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(TW// Suicide, Self-harm)
"Alright, it wasn't that fucking bad!" Mari screamed.
"Alright but it hurt y/n. You know better than to hurt her like that!!!" Len added on.
Mari pushed Len down onto the ground, "y/n isn't good enough to be in our group and you know that Len. You even said so, you two-faced BITCH" Mari kept on yelling.
"P-Please guys, it's 2AM... We were supposed to have a good sleepover this time. W-We were supposed to make up...." Alysea stuttered.
Mari took a deep breath in, "I love you Alysea, BUT THIS ISN'T THE TIME FOR YOUR BULLSHIT"
Len got up from the ground and dusted off their clothing. "Y/n is a good friend, she's been a good friend for YEARS NOW. Just because she did something you didn't like doesn't mean you can just push her away. She's listened to us, she's heard us, she has HELPED us for years now. If it wasn't for her I would.... I would have...." Len's voice lowered and it suddenly got quiet.
The color drained from mari's face, "L-Len... What are you saying?"
Alysea's face started to get red, she walked up to Len and cupped their hands within their own, "Y-You aren't saying you would have....." Alysea stopped mid-sentence.
"L-Len?..." I said... So far, I haven't said a single thing, I know I deserve this treatment after what I said about Mari but... still....
Len immediately looked over to me. Their smile was faint but, it was still there. "Yes. I would have... Killed myself. But we shouldn't let that-" Len got cut off by Mari taking her arm.
Mari rolled up Len's sleeve and revealed almost a thousand cuts. Alysea's face turned into disgust as she walked away, it didn't take long before she puked into the grass. She never liked the smell or the appearance of blood. A lot of the cuts were brand new as well...
"Len. You fucking liar. You said you quit. You fucking said you quit...." Mari started to sob as well as Len.
"But, y/n Sh-She helped me! J-J-J-Just because she told the principal about you bullying people doesn't mean she's a bad friend!"
Mari looked away from Len... She threw down Len's arm.
"I'm-... I-I'm sorry..." I could hear my shaking voice almost crack as I spoke. I was almost choking on my tears.
Mari's eyes stared into mine, "You. You knew about this. You LET Len continue cutting themselves, didn't you? You are not my friend, you are a liar... You are someone I hate. You aren't allowed to talk to Alysea OR Len. Not anymore. And I'll do everything in my power to make sure you live a life of hell. Do you hear me!?!?!" Mari continued on yelling at me. Len tried to say something but they couldn't muster up anything.
"F-Fine then! W-We're no longer friends...." My voice was cracking, my legs were shaking.
I lifted up my hands to my neck... Should I do it? Yes. I should.... I ripped off a make-shift necklace, it read "bestfriends". It was made out of wood and string but, it was something so important, it was important to everyone.
"Wait- Y/n no-" Mari said, putting her hand up but it was too late. With all my force, I cracked the necklace in half.
"I DON'T CARE ABOUT ANY OF YOU ANYMORE. IF I'M THE VILLAIN IN THIS SITUATION, FINE. BUT I'M NOT GOING TO PRETEND THAT WE'RE STILL FRIENDS. GOOD BYE!" I stormed off without saying anything else...
I could hear the sobs of Len, and their shaking voice in the distance, "W-Wait No-No. Y/N PLEASE. PLEASE FOR GOD'S SAKE DON'T LEAVE ME AGAIN!!!"
My tears ran down my face as I continued on. Alysea's faint voice was the only thing I could hear now...
She was yelling but it sounded almost like a whisper... "MARI WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU???? Y/N DID THE RIGHT THING. It's your fault if we all fall apart now, and you know it."
The rest of the argument was faint. I couldn't hear anything else except for the wind of the harsh night.
I walked around town a bit... The night lights flickering along the street. I shouldn't be here... not at all... But, I knew, I had to go do something. I made my way along the town's streets until I found a forest. This is the forest we always met up at, and there's something special in here... something I need to destroy.... Along the main path, there was a smaller, and less visible secondary path. Alysea pointed it out when we first explored the forest. I went along the secondary path. After a while of walking, there it was. Our stump. We used to engrave random messages into the stump, something like "Mari, Len, Alysea, Y/n - 20XX". Or something representing that we were there. I took my spare lighter and set the stump on fire. The writing all burned away, and so did some of the stump.
I heard footsteps and quickly put it out with the water bottle I had. I then ran out of the forest...
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I jolted awake. I could feel my face being covered in tears I didn't even know I had. Why was it a memory... Why that memory... Why not the field.... Why not that goddamn field.
I felt the morning sun shine onto my face. I grabbed my phone and glanced at the time. 5:58 AM.... I pushed my head into the pillow, allowing myself to fall asleep again. I don't want to go back to sleep, but, I need some rest....
I hate my younger self.
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Time posted: 12/4/22 @7:31 PM
(Also, side-note, I really wanna thank @KiwiMattio for being my proof-reader and correcting my silly or big mistakes. <3)