january 7th, 2017
i find myself drawn to you nowadays, and lately, every single day, i begin to wonder if i made a mistake when i replied back to you with that "hey." because life has changed so much over these past months, and i'm so afraid of what'll happen now since this friendship could easily shatter the moment i open my mouth and say something cruel and so very like me again.
you say that we can work past what happened that day when i became enraged, but i feel as if things have shifted because you can now see that i am not as kind as you believed me to be, and perhaps this is the point where things begin to shatter with ease.
the future is a mystery that has yet to become a part of my history, and i've only begun to realize how frightening it is to look for something that is entirely unpredictable.