Falling for my Sensei ?? Kakashi Hatake x OC

I Would Do Anything

I sit on the floor looking around the room, wondering where the hell he would put the mission scroll.

My eyes skate over the book shelves, widening once I spot it.

There on top of his Icha Icha series, shoved to the back of the shelf is a scroll.

I stand up and walk over to the shelves. I only realize my hands are trembling when I pick it up and open it.

My eyes quickly scan over the page.

Sure as shit, right here in front of me, is the mission to assassinate Hidan and Kakuzu.

A mission exactly like the one that killed my sister, has been assigned to the love of my life.

I stare at the open scroll feeling lost.

Helplessness weighs heavily on my chest as I reread the scroll multiple times.

There's no way I can let him go. The haunting images of Kakashi in the hospital bed, Genma's blood soaked shirt come rushing back to me.

I almost didn't get him back alive the last time he went after Hidan.

Panic stirs in the pit of my stomach and I suddenly feel the bile rise in my throat.

I stand up and rush to the bathroom, barely making it on time to empty my stomach into the toilet.

I rinse my mouth out and splash a bit of water over my face in an unsuccessful attempt to calm down.

I stare at myself in the mirror.

Fear is etched onto every inch of my face. I look like a stranger.

I can't lose him.

I can't let him go, I won't. I grip onto the bathroom counter, knuckles turning white.

I'd rather put my life on the line one thousand times over than risk what could happen if he goes on this mission.

I once lost the most important person in my life to Hidan. I'm not about to lose another.

I grab my phone from my back pocket and quickly ignore the text messages I have from Kakashi and the other from Hinata.

It's 10:30. If I'm gonna go, I need to leave now. That would give me at least a few hours before anyone realizes that I took off.

I rush into the bedroom, throwing my shirt and my bra off along the way. I strip off my jeans and quickly put on some spandex shorts, a black T-shirt  and my ninja vest.

I stuff my travel pack with the only things I'll need for this mission.

My weapons.

I snap my pack around my waist, securing it tightly around myself. I bend down and open the bottom drawer of my dresser, pulling out the weapon Iruka gifted me.

My katana.

My fingers trace my sisters name engraved on the handle.

My sweet sister. She would never approve of me going. 

The gravity of what I'm deciding to do starts to weigh on me as my head swims. My chest tightens painfully as I push myself to keep moving.

I strap the weapon tightly to my back, feeling the cool leather of its sheath against my skin.

I take my phone out of my back pocket and shove it deep into my top dresser drawer so that there's no way that Kakashi can track me once he realizes that I've gone.

My chest aches with guilt.

I know that he's going to lose it once he realizes I'm gone. But everything will be fine. I'm strong and I won't let my feelings of my sister cloud my vision. 

I know what my goal is, and I won't fail. And then I'll come home to Kakashi, where he'll be here, safe.

I place my hands on the dresser for a moment, taking a deep breath in.

The only thing that pushes me forward is knowing that Kakashi won't have to put his life on the line the way he did before.

I walk into the living room and grab a piece of paper from the magnetic pad on the fridge where we write the grocery list.

I quickly scribble out a note for Kakashi.

I just want him to understand that I'm doing this not because I'm seeking revenge but because I love him too much to let him risk his life like this again.

I struggle to blink the forming tears away.

I fold the paper in half and hold it against my chest.

Where do I put it that he will find it, but not right away?

I walk into the office and place the folded up note where I found the mission scroll. I know he'll find it there eventually.

I make my way over to the front door and pause before I walk out.

I look around our dark apartment.

My stomach tightens as my eyes take in the sight before me.

Our home.

I want nothing more than to curl up in his arms right now.

To feel safe and warm.

I hope that he understands why I have to do this. I hope that after this, he will forgive me.

His words from today replay in my head.

I would do anything for you.

He needs to know that I would do the same for him.

A/N:
I don't even have anything to say 😅 I'm just so excited we've made it to this part!

Next chapter will be posted tomorrow ❤️