Falling for my Sensei ?? Kakashi Hatake x OC

I don't even understand what just happened. I thought we had a good time. How did it end up the way that it did?

I walk into the kitchen and grab the bottle of rum from my pantry, open it and take a long sip from the bottle.

I take the bottle with me and I head to my room to find some clothes. I grab a pair of sweatpants, a white sports bra and a long cardigan.

I feel fucking defeated. And alone.

I pushed Shikamaru away. I always do this shit. I close myself off so that I don't end up getting hurt by anyone.

I was selfish and I used him for sex.

I should've seen that he had been developing feelings. I should've know better.

I feel the tears start to well up in my eyes and I immediately become angry with myself.

Why the fuck am I crying? I'm supposed to be better than this.

I walk over to my mirror and look at myself. The tears spill over and run down my cheeks.

I can't even recognize myself right now.

I look weak and broken.

My anger boils over and I throw my arm back sending it forward and punching my mirror.

Glass shatters onto my floor and blood starts to leak from a huge slice on my knuckles. Fuck, that stings.

I ignore it and I grab the rum and chug close to a quarter of the bottle.

I need air.

I walk out onto my balcony and sit on the floor staring out at the lake behind my apartment building.

The moon reflects onto the water, creating a mesmerizing glow. I feel my head start to get fuzzy. But it's not enough.

I pick up the bottle and let the rum bathe my throat again.

What time is it?

I take my phone out of the pocket of my sweater, wincing at the pain coming from my wounded hand.

1:13 am.

It's late but I'm not even the slightest bit tired.

I'm lonely.

I want company.

And truthfully, there's only one person I want to be with right now.

I pick up my phone and dial the number.