Find Me / Save Me (Bucky x Reader)

"Hun? You okay in there?" Tony lightly tapped on my door just as I had asked FRIDAY to take down the lockdown. With barely any energy left, I slowly got up to my feet and opened the door.

"I'm sorry Tony. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap at you." I said as I opened the door slowly, my face hanging in shame. He had been nothing but supportive to me when I showed up the other day in tatters, a blubbering mess. Telling him how badly I had messed things up.

"It's okay hun. I know it hasn't been easy. That's why... I didn't want to bother you with the kid. You've got a lot on your own plate right now." He pulled me in for a hug, reassuring and strong.

"I get it. But I can't keep moping around Tony. I need to work. To do something. To get my mind off..." Bucky. The fact that I royally messed up. The fact that he needed space. Away from me. The fact that I was pregnant and hadn't even had the chance to tell him yet. "things..."

"I know. I know. Look. I'm heading out with Pep next week. We have a small little trip planned. Why don't you help Happy coordinate the movement of goods next week? Help the old man out. Make yourself useful." He said as he pulled me out of our hug, his arm draped over my shoulder as he pulled me back towards the lab.

"I launched Happy over my shoulder today. He might not want to work with me." I slightly chuckled. Tony hugged me closer to his side and laughed.

"Of course, you did. Happy is always getting his ass handed to him. Did you know that Romanoff beat the shit out of him when we first met?" His eyes wrinkled as he remembered and reminisced.

"Now that has to be a lie..." I laughed.

"Okay maybe not beat the shit out of him. But a solid KO in my book anyways." He smirked. Come on, let's grab a bite to eat. I promised Pep you'd join us for dinner tonight. Sighing I let myself be led by Tony, going with his plans.

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Steve's POV

"This is ridiculous. You need to tell him to get his head out of his ass and call her. Tell him to go home. This has gone long enough." Natasha was hounding me, pushing me to act. Her face was stoic and angry as she continued to cook alongside Wanda.

"I know he wants to; his pride is just standing in his way." Wanda mentioned matter of factly as she glanced back at me. The girls were of course teaming up, trying to resolve the situation. But a part of me was angry too. (Y/N) was hiding secrets from all of us, and although some of us were easy to let it go. Bucky and I can't.

The three of us have been through so much together. But we've always done it together. And now (Y/N), who was supposed to be one of my best friends, and wife to Bucky, was holding back on us. Not trusting us.

Yet she trusted Tony. Honestly, I think that irked me beyond belief. Beyond her lies of omission, beyond her secrets. She chose Tony, over us. That frustrated me, angered me. I could only imagine how much worse Bucky felt.

Finally, getting out of my own thoughts I spoke up. "He's a grown man. If he doesn't want to reach out, it's because he's not ready. And I don't blame him."

"Of course, you don't Steve." Nat said simply. But I knew her better, I knew her tone of voice by now, her little tells. She was upset, at the situation, at Bucky, at me. Great.

"At some point Steve you're going to have to forgive her. And I know Bucky is dying from the distance. Honestly, it wasn't even a big deal Steve..." Sam chimed in as he sat down beside me on the counter.

"She lied to us." I said plainly.

"Yeah, she did. But I'm sure she did it for a good reason. I know after everything, Bucky barely wanted her on missions anymore. He was scared to lose her again. I get it. We all felt the same way. But it's part of the job, right? Going out there, risking it all for the greater good. But you let him keep her from missions. So, she played the part of a housewife, to appease you both. Did you guys really think she would stop being (Y/N) just like that? Come on man. You should have known better! We all knew better." He took hold of my shoulder and squeezed it tight.