-Guess who loves you??|Heesunwon|?

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"H..hey Sunoo."

great..not even Honnie calls me Ddeonu.
I just want to bury my face into my future grave already...
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Sunoo

The tension here was very thick as we all sat at the chairs from the dining table.I picked up the ramen with my chopsticks and showed them into my mouth staying silent.

Jake was coughing to get our attention.
„E-ehm yowww..W-we travel soon!How about we all go together?"

I didn't even looked at him shooking my head.Heeseung was glaring at me the whole time but I didn't mind.I just ignored it.

„Jake I have a business trip."

„I stay with Yeji while Heeseung is gone.."
Wonie whispered making me feel sad.He didn't even knew that I planned to leave with Niki to Japan..he would have let me stay here alone..really...

Niki who sat besides me grabbed my hand under the table."Hyungie,I want to Japan tomorrow..I'm sorry but I'm sure the other two would join you to Australia."

Jake then shifted his eyes on me."Sunoo?
You can join us!I swear it will be so cool there unless you want to sta-"

„I go with Niki to Japan tomorrow.I go pack my stuff."I put the still full dish into the sink.I pushed my chair back to the chair making some annoying noises when I was pushing it a little bit too strongly against the table and left into my room.
Niki was running behind me just like Jay Hyung out of the sudden.

"Sunoo wait."Jay grabbed my wrist, pulling me to him."You can't just leave."

My face stiffened."Jay?Are you serious?
I get it you aren't on my side already but can you let me breath.You guy's didn't talked to me for 3 day's.Niki is the only one who told me about his plans,I want to stay with him in Japan for..how long Niki?"

"I wanted to stay for a month.."

"Let's say two months because I'm so fucking full of their shit!Jay I am sorry okay?!I am sorry for being so mad,I am sorry that I'm angry and screaming right now. I just want you to understand me,
all my life I head to the wrong direction, all my life I wasn't as happy as I was here together with all of you but I need space to figure out if I dont only hurt myself,
If I hurt all of you by being so selfish."

I didn't waited for any answer as I head into my room,packing in some clothes.

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I sneaked into Heewon's room to their..
closet...I grabbed a few Hoddies and a pair of Jungwons pyjamas that he never really wore..I picked out only the ones who smelled like either Heeseung or Jungwon..sometimes even both of them.

I left the room hoping no one saw it but I knew..they wouldn't care anyways.Niki waited in the car outside of me.It was Yeji who wanted to drive us to the airport after we payed for my ticket online as Niki already payed for his.My bag tightly in my arms was how I left the house..not looking behind once again.

"Do you want to say bye?I mean..we will be away for about 2 Months..at least a goodbye for now..."Niki said with a hint of guilt in his deep voice.

...Do I want to turn back to say bye or do I want to go..

Little did everyone know..this maybe could be the last chance seeing each other...alive.