Kit Connor Imagines

HAPPY RELEASE OF HEARTSTOPPER SEASON 2!!! Thank you for being so kind and encouraging, even when I wasn't as active as I hoped I would be. I hope you understand that there was a lot going on in my life, like school, broken friendships, family issues and some other things as well (SOME OF WHICH WERE VERY POSITIVE). I wanted to thank the amazing xDumb0bitchx for helping me so much with this book, because this idea for the chapter AND an amazing first draft came from her. THANK YOU FOR ALL THE LOVE ON THIS BOOOK BTW; I LOVE ALL OF YOU SOO MUCH!!!

You and Kit have been best friends since kindergarten and have known each other for even longer. So the decision to become roommates seemed almost natural, mostly because of their shared job with similar work schedules, but also because everyone knew they were meant to live together.

Saying Kit was a great roommate would be an understatement. He went out of his way to help as much as he could, even though his role didn't leave him much time to do so. And his role was the exact reason why you would occasionally wake up with one of his pale blue sticky notes on your bedside table, usually a bad joke or a question from one of the cast members written on them in Kit's handwriting.

Today however, you weren't ready for the note that stuck on one of the books next to your bed. You try your best to stay awake while bringing the piece of paper closer to your face. The smile on your face quickly turns into a frown as you read the 5 words over and over.

I'm in love with you

The thought of getting ready for set is your last priority right now, standing up to find Kit as fast as possible. He was stood in the kitchen, preparing breakfast and by the look of it, he was almost done.

As his eyes met yours, he smiled but dropped it almost immediately as he saw the look on your face. "What is this?" The eyes that smiled for you are now looking down at the stove, trying to think of something to say. "A note." It's a statement, but the way he says it makes it sound more like a question than anything else. "Okay, yeah. I get that, but why does it say you're in love me?"

The way he starts playing with one of the rings on his fingers isn't missed by you, you aren't sure you want to see the expression on his face, so you continue staring at the ring. "Because I do." You can't help but sigh at his statement and you can't help but feel slightly mad at him for doing it right here, right now. "Kit, you can't just say that. We've been friends for so long, are you sure you're actually in love with me? I think you might be misinterpreting your feelings."

It hurt you to talk like that, but you knew that one of you had to think about everything that was at risk, and it was just too much you would lose if you ever dated and broke up.

"You're right, we were friends for a really long time, but I've liked you since then. We're older now and that liking became love. Romantic adult love." He became more quiet with each word he spoke, looking at you with pleading eyes. "I... I really don't know what to think right now. I'm sorry."

Kit nodded and looked around, trying to find something he can focus on. He was saved by the watch on his wrist, saying that they should leave. You knew his schedule and you knew your own, both of you didn't have to leave for another 30 minutes, but for the sake of your own comfortability as well as his own, you decided to not say anything else and just nod.

It's quiet on your car ride to the set, something that you should be used to by now, but the tension from Kit's earlier confession makes the silence between the both of you feel strangely uncomfortable. "I think it's best if we take some time to ourselves for now. Just.. I need time to think." You don't look him in the face as you say this, trying to keep your eyes on your lap.

The cast members noticed, of course they did. Kit and you were closer than anybody else on set, so seeing the two of you acting so cold towards each other caused a multitude of reactions from various people on set. Some even went up to you and asked about what had happened between the two of you.

The uncomfortable atmosphere lasted for almost a week, which was what scared you the most. Normally, reading some of the notes Kit had given you over the years was all it took for you to go to him and apologize, and that was all it took for Kit to welcome you back into his life with open arms.

The question you had asked yourself ever since you first read his note still lingered in the air.

Am I in love with Kit?

You were aware that you most likely were, having the urge to kiss your best friend was probably not normal, and planning your future according to what he wanted probably wasn't either, but your doubts outweighed these feelings. Until now.

The thoughts of losing him as a best friend were what kept you from dating him, but that thought is slowly becoming reality because of your own cowardice.

You were on set when this realization dawned on you, and as you look at the schedule for today, your heart beats faster when you see that he should be in his trailer right now.

A quick knock is all it takes for Kit to shout for you to come in from the other side of the door. With his phone in his hand, he was sitting on his couch. As soon as he realized who had entered the room, a puzzled look took over his features, even more so when you said down on the couch as well.

The situation seemed stupid to the both of you. The two of you had hardly spoken this week and now you were sitting next to him, smiling like an idiot. "Do you like my shirt?" This was not how you planned this to go, especially because Kit didn't seem to understand at first. Then his eyes went from your face back to your shirt and he noticed that what you had called your shirt was in reality his. "Yeah, I think it looks good."

"Thanks. You know, there's this guy I'm absolutely in love with, he gave it to me." You couldn't help but smile as Kit just looked at you with wide eyes. "What did you just say?"

You moved so you were completely facing Kit, playing with your hands on your lap. "Remember two years ago, when that one guy stood me up and you watched Clueless with me 'till I felt better?" You knew Kit didn't know where you were going with this, because he just nodded, not saying anything.

"Okay, so: Do you remember that one scene where Cher realized she loved Josh? Like who wouldn't love Josh, he's Paul Rudd but still." You await his answer and when he quietly confirms that he does remember, you start talking again. "Well, I had my own "I love Josh" moment." His eyes meet yours for the first time in what feels like eternity and you see how hopefulness in his face. "Really? With who?" Kit cringes at that, thinking he came of as too strong. "Paul Rudd, of course."

He groaned loudly at this, throwing his head back and shoving your shoulder slightly. "I hat you, like so much." You couldn't help but chuckle before you pouted a bit at him. "Well, that's a shame-" As you say this, you take out the blue sticky note you had carried with you almost everywhere and hand it to him "-then what am I supposed to do with this?"

"Why are you giving it back to me?" You just nod into the directions of the note, indicating that he should consider opening it. The note still had the same words that Kit had written a week prior, but they now carried an addition of your handwriting next to it.

The note now read: I'm in love with you too <3

That was all it took for Kit to place the note to the side and hug you, resting his head in your neck. "Never do something like this again." He says, pulling away from you to look into yours eyes. "I promise."