Home Is When I'm With You - Cynonari

Cyno pov

When I woke up, I was delirious. The room felt cold and my bed felt light and empty. The blinds I had drawn last night did little to stop the blinding lights pouring in, meaning it must have been late. Among other oddities, my neck stung and although I, on occasion, slept shirtless, I never slept naked.

Oh

oh.

That's what happened.

That's why the bed felt unusually light. Because for the majority of the night, it had been occupied by two people. He wasn't typically here, especially not as of recent, which was likely why I hadn't noticed his absence immediately.

But I brushed it off, figuring he had returned to his room to clean up, though I'd wished he'd woken me. I wanted to speak to him properly. Not like the very brief conversation we had yesterday before things took...a turn... But I wasn't worried, yesterday, I'd been so sure he'd shove me off after my advances and want nothing more from me. I'd been so relieved, and I still was. I wasn't that worried anymore, well, a bit. I knew that if I played my cards right, all would correct itself in time. I think we both just needed to give it some time and effort, though considerably more on my part.

I pushed myself up and out of bed and took a proper glance around my room. My clothes were strewn about messily while none of Tighnari's things were anywhere to be found but that was to be expected.

Despite my dreary state, I knew it had to be past midday, so I got up and walked over to my cupboard, grabbed some clean clothes and went into my shower. It was quick but refreshing and desperately needed. I left the bathroom with my clean clothes on and started picking up my clothes and various other things before I dumped my dirty laundry in a pile to be washed. I took a glance around the room and decided there were other things that needed a bit of cleaning as well. So I went about pulling off and balling up some of my bed sheets before I dumped them in the same dirty laundry pile. I tidied away some clutter from my desk and bedside tables.

Once I finished, I wasn't really sure what to do. After thinking on it for a while I decided I would go and talk to Tighnari, and see if we could straighten some things out. I mostly just wanted to see if he was okay, we haven't had a chance to speak properly for a while. Not without effort on his part. I didn't want to think about the past few weeks, and especially what happened before.

I was more than regretful. He laid out all the signs, he showed me, and he essentially told me how much I was hurting him but it seems I was simply far too oblivious. I didn't even think about what my goal was at the time. I did need more time to think, but I suppose I shouldn't have taken as long as I did.

I didn't want to stall for much longer, for fear of possibly missing him at his dorm. But that was under the assumption he left my room very recently.

I left the dormitory and lo and behold it was around midday, so chances were, I wouldn't catch him. But I would try anyway.

I made my way over to and through his dormitory until I was standing in front of his door.

I took a deep breath and raised my hand to the door. I knocked three short times.

"Tighnari...? Are you there?" I called out quietly, I thought out my words carefully for fear of upsetting him "Are...you okay to talk now?"

He probably would have heard me outside before I even intended to get his attention. I stared at the door for a few more seconds before I knocked again.

"Nari?"

Still no reply and no noises from behind the door. I stared at the door for a minute, listening intently. But once I was sure he wasn't there anymore, I lowered my arm, defeated and walked off. As I walked down the hall, I considered where I could look for him.