You Kept Your Promise (Sequel to Jade And Onyx)

Chapter Twenty: Panera and Salt

We eventually moved from the wall and kept walking, and I was still sulking from the reality of how immature I was being.

"Don't be like that," he told me, "I'm not upset with you, but I do need you as my partner, I can't do this on my own."

I looked up quickly and scowled, "I wasn't planning on letting you do this alone, that would be unprofessional and it wouldn't make me any more mature."

He went silent and nodded, and I felt guilty for snapping at him like I did.

"I'm sorry about that, just frustrated with myself now. I'll get over it, I promise I won't let it get in the way of work," I said.

His mouth curved up a bit, "Thanks Sakura."

I gave him my best smile, "No problem Sasuke."

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"You should've been smart like me and ordered the frontega chicken panini," I said with a mouthful of frontega chicken panini.

He rolled his eyes, "Not all of us are picky eaters that order one thing from every restaurant because they're afraid to experiment."

I made a face at him and took another mouthful of my sandwich.

"I'm just saying, that salad doesn't look very appetizing."

"Sakura, you hate salad."

"Yeah, so?"

He laughed, "You're such a good time."

I smiled, thinking to myself yeah, if I was such a good time why'd you break up with me then get engaged then kiss me you little shit.

He abruptly stopped laughing, "What's with that look? You look like you're ready to scream at me."

I coughed, "Overdramatic much? Besides, what possible reason would I have to want to scream at you?"

"Why do I feel like you're salty about-"

I shushed him, "We're at work, we mustn't be unprofessional remember?"

He glared at me but said nothing else.

I smiled to myself, pleased at the fact that I was able to joke about how my life was falling apart and not feel anything about it except a lot of regrets.

'You're on a roll today, haven't you thought of how this feels like a date?' inner commented with a snide look on her face.

Shut your mouth, I thought back and angrily drank my Coke.

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"It's almost time to meet up with everyone," I commented, ready to go back home and curl myself up in a ball under the covers while I watched the old teen titans.

"Yeah, let's go ahead and get on the train and meet back up with them," Sasuke said.

I cheered in my head, extremely glad that I was going home soon because I really needed to sit down and drown in my own misery.

We got to the train and had to wait on the next one, which wasn't for another ten to twenty minutes.

We were sitting on a bench just enjoying each other's company and laughing, just kidding it was awkward as hell because we were both naturally quiet people. This wasn't very good, because even though I was on my phone, my mind still wandered to things I didn't want to think about. I was also wondering what would've happened if he didn't do that. Would I still be sad? Was I even sad? I wasn't sure.

I was happy that we dated and had such a nice high school relationship.

I was happy that we loved each other.

I was happy that we still had a friendship.

I was happy to be sharing parts of my life with him.

I was happy that he kissed me.

But I was sad too.

I was sad that I had to move. What would it have been like if I had stayed? Would we have lasted? Would our friendship have survived if it didn't?

I was sad that he was engaged. He kissed me and I remembered everything we had and how much I loved him. I had a few boyfriends in college, but none of them even came close in comparison to him.

I was sad that he kissed me and complicated things. I had come to terms that we would never date again after I moved and when I found out he was engaged.

I was sad that I couldn't have him.

It was a complicated feeling to be both happy and sad, and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be. 

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There was no denying that I was bummed.

I was bummed on the train, I was bummed when we met up with everyone, I was bummed on the way home, and now I'm sitting on my bed looking into nothing.

I hate that everything had to get so complicated. I felt a childish resentment towards my parents for making us move away and taking away some of my happiness.

I sighed, it really was lonely without Carolyn and Ashton. They'd be back in a few days, but then they'd have to leave after their job in Japan was over, and I'd be alone again.

I just hope I could sort myself out before they leave so that I can be okay when they leave and not have them worried.

I sighed and put my head in my hands.

Suddenly a noise echoed through my silent house.

I looked up and focused on my surroundings; someone was knocking on my door.